30.9.05 ;
WE LIVE LIKE VAMPIRES
AND WE, WE, WE LOVE LIKE KILLERS
WE ALL DIE LIKE INFANTS
AND WE TRUST LIKE MIRRORS! SLOW SUICIDEEE!
okay shit im damn hyper. today's a nice day, i did flips, handstands, half-flips and well, bridge and two sided cartwheel. yup, todays a nice day.
its the smoke and the drinks and the smiles that it brings; its the pain and the sex disguised as innocence; its the smoke and the drinks and the smiles that it brings; its a desperate place for a desperate people to find their place before desperate heroes; its the pain and the sex disguised as innocence; a desperate place for a desperate... and they sing!
solongGOODBYE
27.9.05 ;
i'll try
she said as she walked away
try not to lose you
two vibrant hearts cld changeI'LL BE HERE WAITING, TESTED AND SECURE
todays an EXTREMELY SLACK DAY ):
i went to school for a very pathetic lesson of chemistry. which wasnt even hard at all :\ ohwell. anw its the first ever day i had so many free periods but it comes at the wrong time 'cos kris wasnt in school. they really hate me you knw?
so i went home and 2+ after finishing my chem lab and phy assignment. euniceeeee im so mad at myself. i was like, on purpose go change it to angle = sin inverse smthng, then turns out in the end they wanted sin. oh well, thankfully i realised in the end. the root of all evil by dream theater is so niceeeeeeeee [:
YAY MY SISTER'S NICE FRIENDS AGREED TO PLAY
OUR PARTY'S WORKING OUT.
IM REAAAAAAALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT.
and there's bio essay tmr! got some books from lot one but they're really pathetic. kay i shall do half today (x i think. i mean, i hope la.
i dont get it you knw, i really dont.its freaking unfair. now tell me, whats so bad about pool that they hafta make it illegal fer pple aged younger than 16? its a ball game right? therefore its a sport too. who the hell ever puts age restrictions on sport. its not as if pool's the only game you can bet on 'cos lots more pple bet on soccer or horseracing too. and pool's fun. its educational kay, we learn about all the angles and stuff like that. there's actl alot of physics in it! i bet they're just jealous 'cos they cant play as well. ugh ):
okay anw im just. crapping 'cos im frustrated that i cant play pool today 'cos stupid k pool has a minimum age of 16 to open a table but i dont have that ic yet. i mean, well all other pool halls too but i still cant understand the logic behind it :
mm today sam wong passed me my notes. and i was reminded of justin ho jia qing! (: haha see i still rmbr his full name okay. and i miss justin too 'cos justin was a super great friend back then. we're stuck in the same class since pri3, but i guess i only got to knw him better in pri 4 onwards. maybe its 'cos our classes really didnt have much guys, so evon was always paired up with wei lun and i was always paired up with justin. and my mom talks to his mom! and well, his sister was my sister's good friend for many yrs too. so yeah (:
and then i rmbred all the times justin wld kinda like collect my work when i was absent and vice versa. it was kinda cute, really hahaha cos we lived so near each other anw. and all my other girlfriends, i dont knw, they dont collect for me. it was somehow like an unspoken rule, he wld automatically collect them and give it to me. and there was this time i was feeling really heaty then when i went to get my stuff from him his mom gave me some medicine thing! (x haha so nice. and robotics thing! (: its super funny. how he came over to my hse and we're playing pinball halfway on the com while doing it. and rushing for the proj.
i knw there have been rumors abt us (like, DUH) but i guess we both knw it isnt true. 'cos we're just good friends laaa. and yup, i miss him! (: haha. yay i hope hes having a nice life too.
solongGOODBYE
26.9.05 ;
look in the mirror
does it look familiar
cannot put my finger
why he kinda looks like me
used to like hooking up with you
after waking first thing i'ld do
one sided sensation
watching me watching you
now i'm stuck how I feel
i dont knw if its real
i'm tryna find someone
who's invisible
now i'm stuck in the middle
my life is the riddle
trying to find someone
who's invisible
YAY JAMES LABRIE ROCKS HES GOOOOOOD (X
havent been exactly blogging at this blog 'cos well, there is a possibility that tchers are reading so ive been using the other one. then again i realised it doesnt really matter anw (: so here i am (har, goldfinger)
wednesday was the physics trip thinggg. most of the cheerleaders didnt go :\ oh wait, scratch that- all of the cheerleaders other than bryan didnt go. well, i guess it's pretty boring.
random msg: i like dream theater! :D yeah and point was that they went in houses so i suppose it was rather obvious that we uhm. skipped it.
but i had a legal excuse!
oh, and im happy 'cos i finally managed to wheel throw nicely on thursday! (: it turned out quite pretty. gotta thank mikel hahaha. and i made a stupid spastic looking snowman coil pot. i srsly think that ms ching hates me. its okay, me and kris have the impression that all tchers hate us anw! like.... laoshi! tho i knw laoshi's nice and i score well enough in hcl.
OMG OUR PARTY YAY :D
by the way the venue is booked, uhm details are on the cheer blog, and we've oliver's band, quint (some RI band), and caleb's brother daniel performing! (x yay but we want more. hahaha. joshua and daniel tai might do a stand up comedy for us too. but we have tickets la (and they cost MONEHHH heehee) and invitation lists. im uber happy! i hope it turns out nice.
FRIDAY;
ooh hahah fun fun fun.! school was as per normal. oh and i tried doing alot more flips as well :D i think im in love with breakdancing although i totally suck at it. but i'll go walk arnd with ezra at the esplanade area! i wonder if there're breakdancing courses 'cos i wna go. and mira's hiphop classes with patrick loo! and eunice's gym classes at bishan! hahah our holidays are gna be damn packed.
bball was okay la. but i felt kinda bad 'cos we lost very badly fer the match. daniel is goooood at three pointers. and mr yang's kabuo! omg joseph can do it damn well so all of the girls were laughing like shit while doing warmups.
and then our sakae sushi date! hahaha me tiff kris mira and jo! [: taxi-ed down to heeren. it was so fun! and we ate so much, like arnd 40+ plates. and the watermelons are sweeeeet rightrightright, kris? (x ahaha and we're damn cheap we were tryna hide the rice underneath the plates 'cos we cldnt finish them off. and its a freaking five dollars fer a hundred grams.
oh and we saw these two ij girls. ijtp i think. theyre damn hilarious, as in we cldnt help but laugh at them. we walked into the toilet and one of them was like
-squeals
'OOH MY TUMMY'S GETTING SMALLER!
AND THAT'S A GOOOOD THING!'
-squeals more.
terrible la hahaha. the moment me and tiff got out of the cubicles we were like imitating them trying to act bimbotic and cldnt stop laughing at them. AND THEYRE SHORT AND FUGLAAAAYE. TSK -frowns
then shopped arnd. the hoodies! omg the hoodies are damn cool hahah i want. jo and me were trying on and taking weird pictures. then adidas too. the skirts are so pretty. and the shirt too (: oh, and they got me one kimura takuya's picture <3! hes damn hot.
then hmv then we went back. kris is nice 'cos she let me sleep on her bag for the whole trip home! (: while listening to taeki and tsubasa! (x hahah theyre both so obsessed over taeki. anw we decided to be real extra so we took the train frm somerset to marina bay so that we'll get our favorite seats on our way back :D
so yup. its a fun day. esp in sakae sushi!
didnt go to school tday.
i wna poooooool.
louis too! so shall wait for my sister and chooting (x
solongGOODBYE
22.9.05 ;
HI
IN CASE YOU HAVENT NOTICED,
MY BUTT HURTS!
-screams
grrr the stupid tailbone thingy :\ its quite painful and i doubt i can do kip-ups till a while later.
OH YA AND MY HEART HURTS TOO.
no, not the love way, just that it hurts la. esp when i eat :
todays a sadsadsad day. why? 'cos i wont tell you. but i feel kinda accomplished cos i finished phy lab, and the uhm. chinese.
chinese lesson was fun today!
MM AND ANOTHER PIECE OF NEWS
IM GNA BE A BREAKDANCER :D
im really serious. haha its damn cool. i did a flip today! okay, more than one but all look like shit. its okay! i'll practise! practice makes perfect what! hahaha mira so cute today. this morning she was like '(convicted) yes, im gna go a flip today, no matter what. if i dont do one, i wont go home'
and in the end she kept laughing la hahaha. see the thing is, it doesnt hurt after the first time i suppose. you just need to take the step to do it the first time, the rest wld be so much easier?
TMR WE HAVE MARCHE/SAKAE SUSHI DATE! (:
after cca haha yay?
solongGOODBYE
19.9.05 ;
ever haunted, by the trappings of this life
sweet redemption, just in front of me
well now, it seems once again that i've lost another
one of the ones that have broke thru the wallheh talking to shengsen is nice.! (: hes matureeeee. and yeah, hes quite friendly hahahah yay omg he
agreed after much persuasion frm yours truly of course [:
and hes prolly one of the sec ones that i'll respect laaa i think. somemore he joked with us and told us quite a bit of stuff haha he trusts us (: yay.
KYLE!
HES ONLY TEN OMG SO POSEUR ALRDY. CAN CAN, GOT FUTURE ONE. MUST KEEP A LOOKOUT HAHAH (:
omg i sound spastic.
anw NYMPHETAMINE!
so nice so nice so nice.
dont knw whether engaged reading or anything.
BUT I STILL LOVE YOU HAHA!
talking to you, is quite fun lehh. dont knw, its kinda different frm talking to other pple, but somehow its kinda like yr own style laaa. then at certain point of times, it'll be suddenly so silent. and then i was thinking abt stuff. mm maybe talking to you makes me think. oh well i dont knw :
is it better to live optimistically but kinda fakely?maybe i really am too optimistic.
MAYBE?
hahah okay shit that reminds me of pride! takuya kimura <3 dont knw, hes so cool. cammie likes him too! (:
listening to 'i walk beside you' by dream theater now. its so special, its unlike all other types of songs, theres like no specific genre fer it la, damn cool [:
dance thing coming up :i gotta hurry heehee.!
ANW OH YA I HOPE LEON READS THIS (:
hahah thanks darling omg that was so sweet la. supposedly on hiatus but you blogged cos.... its my bday! :D YAY. and yeah hahah im the bishoujo(x that aint a bimbo 'cos im too smart! gee, how did you ever guess! hahah anw LOVE YOU LAAA. its being terribly nice being yr friend.!
solongGOODBYE
18.9.05 ;
no songs tday ):
the ones ive been listening to has got no lyrics so haha yup.
thanks to alot more random pple who had wished me happy birthday (: though i cant exactly rmbr each and everyone of you. yay i miss brittany alot. okay thats random but yeah.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
YUEER ON THE 14TH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
ME ON THE 15TH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
ALMERIC ON THE 15TH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
FABIAN ON THE 16TH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
LKY ON THE 16TH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
ALYCIA ON THE 17TH!
heehee lky too (x
yay i
<3 lysh!
FRIDAY;
yay i love this day. it was uber fun 'cept fer some arguments.
tralalaaaaaye was a normal day etc then after that i skipped bball trng to go make my ic. it was horrible ): i hate it im not gna show anyone. my mom says i cant smile. whatever :
went t bugis and shopped fer a while. saw this reaaally cool hiphop kinda shirt. its like, short sleeves with long sleeves heehee. it was nice la. mom wanted to buy fer me but i asked her to buy my hoodie instead first. so she was like, okay. and she bought it fer my sister instead -.- but i liked the collar one more. it looks cool on me hahaha (:
went back to school and then uhm met up with jo aiwei nat tiff and ezra (who came to our school so yay [:) took taxi there. hahah at first the first taxi was like, me and aiwei and jo. but 'cos we were damn cheap we asked ezra along to pay lesser (: so i hope tiff wasnt angry. hurhur anw we were supposed to drop off jo somewhere 'cos she needed to go somewhere but she ended up gng with us fer the whole thing hahah. so yay! reached sji, and then went t the squash courts to spy on almeric! derrick sibling was there too! hahah i like the sji squash coach! i think ive said that the last time i went but still. yeah! he rmbrs me as the one who cheated him with almeric last time hahaha.
you knw. its cool you can tell who are the noobs straight away. tiff was complaining of the smell and investment in deodorants. heehee! (x then almeric has some sort of break so he took us on our tour. meanwhile aiwei and jo were on their 'taking photos' tour haha.
the school, is quite pretty laaa. i like the library. it looks so COOL haha. but i wonder if pple really study there [: or play. oh yeah we were on our way to the street soccer place then we met up with xavier too! (see i didnt spell yr name wrongly haha) oh, then no more break so we tried to find smthng to amuse ourselves.
TOOK LOTSA PICTURES (x
OMG IT WAS UBER FUN. WE'RE LIKE, HAHAH TRYNA LOOK SO BIMBO ON THE BARS ITS FUNNAAAAAYE. yay hope jo uploads them soon! (: it's fun.
then the grp of us went fer dinner! (x hahah four guys four girls. in celebration of me and almeric's bday (yay) me jo tiff aiwei almeric ezra derrick xavier! haha okay we're cheap dudes we went to kfc at fareast. oh well, thankfully it wasnt pastamania. the bus ride there was hilarious though. heh we were passing on the empty cups and sibling was a gentleman he took it fer us! and we're back to our 'hey gan eng seng rocks man!' craziness. it was really cool, i havent had such fun in ages.
and ezra i think taught me the stupid handshake thing! it was SO FUNNY hahaha i kept doing it to almeric and xavier. they got tricked kay! mm so i guess the pple on the bus were pretty irritated cos we made ALOT of noise.
so. the dinner was quite cool i think we rocked big time. esp with all the cold jokes etc. we made so much noise. and when they tried to sing the happybirthday song i like, hid underneath the table haha. and then prankcalling! they used my phoneeee! haha but nvm anw OMG it was hilarious. i thought that guy cld take jokes but apparently not. hahaha 0.5 plus 0.5 equals?
IM YOUR MATH TCHER
KERPALLLLL AT THE AIRPORT
OH WHOS THE RETARD WHO GOT ONE MARK?
hey its all in the spirit of prankcalling hokay! no offense meant, really. besides, we were just quoting fer the last line (x
and xavier's mom called. this was weird la. and quite scary i suppose.
'COS SHE SAW ALL OF US :and almeric was funnaaaaye. so we're all like. his friends and i dont knw xavier at all, really.
so bus ride home. derrick xavier almeric me and tiff took 190 back. yay i love tiff <3 ahaha. ezra sent aiwei fer her taekwondo class (so sweet!) and jo took another bus back. and hahah jo kinda like left her wallet in my bag so she kinda like, dropped off at the next bus stop. shit must be so maluating :\ so yeah 190 came but it was freaking crowded. then after that there were like 3-4 more buses! at first pple were squeezing into the 2nd or 3rd bus but then tiff shouted out so loud that there were more buses so all the pple decided to take the other buses too. which means lesser space fer us so i was like 'dont tell them dont tell them!' haha. im mean kay but whatever. i wna sit down.
we had so much fun on the bus. okay, tossed the wallet to jo at the next bus stop then we sat at the back of the bus. saw one of their sji friends called samuel and he was so nice he wished me happy birthday! hahaha but i did the handshake thing they taught me on him! :\ i hope it wasnt irritated 'cos it was quite fer fun anw (: we were damn hyper la me and tiff.
then we played the staring game! and i won (after much cheating) and some not laughing game. haha once derrick laughed i laughed like shit 'cos he looked damn funny. yupp then there was this sec 2 sji guy sitting infront of us. and almeric and tiff nearly saboed me! :\ then reached cck. sent tiff off to the mrt (: and me and almeric went to shop at lot one fer a while more then we went back. so yup ,that rounds up the whole day (x UBER FUN.
SATURDAY;
not exactly very nice but i guess korkor was really nice. wanted t go fer suntec thing. shit i shld have la but mom didnt allow. something happened and i was very mad so i went home myself and changed and was gna go fer the suntec dance comp. but mom called and kinda like threatened me. was uber mad but i didnt wna go home so i called korkor and he came out to uhm. buy breakfast and like, have dinner with me.! (x yup so i cheered up quite abit. played daytona! ate fries and sushi! heehee i suck at daytona ):
then went home. thankfully they arent back yet so watched black knight. they came back and kenna scolded (like that was totally unexpected) and yeah it was terrible la. i wanted to leave, i really did but i didnt knw where to go you see. i really wondered if i cld go to the esplanade place or whether jo's parents wld take me in fer like, a day. but somehow i dont knw why i was thinking of engaged. i dont knw why i called him. i really dont. i just knew that i felt quite bad fer what happened too, and i didnt want the friendship to just end like that. and i cldnt call jo cos shes prolly kenna-ing frm her parents too. and i didnt wna call almeric again. i guess i didnt speak much. and at first i was scared that he wldnt pick it up after all that happened. but im thankful that he did. i really am.
its so sad. i dont wna just be one of them, one of those. not like that. its kinda depressing. oh well, and if you dont care that easily, it really makes me think abt my friendship with you. is it really that. fragile? and i suppose i was at fault too. but i was quite hurt, and i hoped i hurt you too. but in the end, i guess maybe i wasnt worth your time afterall.
when i was just a little girl
i asked my mother what wld i be
will i be pretty
will i be rich
heres what she said to me
que sera sera
whatever will be will be
the futures not ours to see
QUE SERA SERAi think i do like this song alot.
solongGOODBYE
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fatman scoop, crooklyn clan
timbaland timbaland
fatman scoop, crooklyn clan
timbaland timbaland
whatever i say y'all gotta do
whatever i say y'all gotta do
whatever i say y'all gotta do
y'all too
y'all too
y'all too
y'all too!
awww lord guess whos coming
timbaland a.k.a freaky phil drummond
who can get it crunk like me timbaland
oh my nigga scoop a.k.a fat man
weed guaranteed t make the party pple bounce
fellas say OHHH girls say AHHH
lookin' at the cornrows up in the club
girl dont be bashful girl back it up
throw it girl like its poking man
shake that ass as fast as you can
white girl shake it like she burning from a sun tan
my dog grip it grab it like it was a soda can
what you talking bout holding back
when you get on the dance floor
drop it like it was a cadillac
what you talking bout cutting nigga slack
girl girl you better bend that back
12 my girls roll deep in the club
cant wait to hit the bar and get that thug
where my dogs that got more than a 100 bucks
cant wait to freak one of the big old butts
before we start to turn it out
you must learn to crunk out
before we start to turn it out
you must first begin to
breathe in breathe out
breathe in breathe out
breathe in breathe out
now drop
now drop
now drop
now drop!
if you got the fattest ass on the block
now drop
let a nigga see the coochie pop
now drop
do the snake do the freak do the pop
now drop
yo dont stop dont stop
real eyes down south thighs
waist line five six seven now drop
one time all in together now drop
yo dont stop dont stop
solongGOODBYE
15.9.05 ;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
thanks you all. you knw i love you anw
-INSERTBIG
HEARTHERE-
thank you jojo tiffany eunice mira kris aiwei altron bryan jieshen thejas xavier almeric ezra leon jt derrick kwok yue er alycia claire weixin maria nathaniel benedict cheryl wai grace alex louis jiajun(kaisen) theophilus lawrence derrick kwa jasmine benjamin yingzhen jacque samwong royston zhiqing jingmin yunying meiying kaihui yuting adeline sarah teo cheryl chan joleen DADDY MOMMY and JIEJIE.!
and other random pple who wished me happy birthday (x
ANW, here goes.
`to almeric
youre first 'cos youre my twin and its our birthdays today. ive got alot to talk to you hahah. anw, ive officially known you fer 7 months and a day! (: yup. so what i wld really like to say is, ive appreciated what you did fer me fer the past few mths before we really drifted apart. maybe youre one of those kors that i wldnt wna forget in my whole life. thanks fer calling to talk to me when im sick and alone at home, thanks fer my grandma thing, thanks fer talking in the morning at macs, thanks fer the sji badge and uniform, thanks fer being there fer me t sajiao too, thanks fer giving in to me most of the time, thanks fer... well, everything (: its been really great knwing you and all. and youre a good guy and you know it hokay.! so yup, lets take pictures 'cos i dont wna forget you AT ALL no matter what happens. i finally found someone with the same birthday as me hahaha. anw, enjoy your birthday kay. its sweet fifteen. next yr we can go clubbing to celebrate alright! (x
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!
<333`to cheerldrs
hahaha thanks you guys its so sweet. the chocolate cake too! yay i love you all. haha thanks fer loving me back! anw, just wna say that im really happy and proud of our cheer team. its not MYCHEERTEAM, its OURCHEERTEAM. why? 'cos all of us really put our heart and souls in it. hahah guess we're quite bonded aye? and im amazed by you guys, srsly. we wldnt have been able to get first fer the cheer performances without any of you. and its the spirit and unity that really keeps us alive. we may have a bad reputation now in school, but as long as our conscience are clear we dont really hafta worry much. we can just take it as an obstacle in our pathway. after all, we just started out didnt we? so yeah, anw im reallyreally amazed that this grp of us actl made it into fibo together and we all can dance! hahah. its cool actl.
I THINK ITS FATE HURHUR :DD. anw fer now, ICHIHARA HAYATO <3, kris!
`to yingzhen
DREAM ON! hahah wheres my angbao!
`to jt
you're first to wish me! hahah kiasu lil kid. oh well ,i must say its been nice knwing you fer arnd two yrs+ alrdy? though we didnt use to talk much but now its really fun talking to you abt stuff and getting hyper together! i'll buy you an edible choc cake next yr la! love ya <3
`to leon
i still rmbred last yr when you were counting down with me. youre a superb friend and you knw that (: and that cute lil birthday song. its really touching! love ya <3
`to nanyang-ers
yuechin! sarahteo! lysh! claire! xin!
WITH MUCH LOVE!`to nathaniel
you knw i was thinking maybe you even forgot abt it. maybe you did, maybe you didnt, but anw not sure if you'll ever read this but yeah. i guess its been nice to hear that birthday thing frm you. old times sake at least.
`to jacque
kinda surprised too. but thanks anw. old times sake again! its still nice.
`to louis
youre weird hahaha! yay you MUST come fer year end party alright. its a deal. and presents! (x you owe me dude.
`to kaisen
its weird thats how we managed to talk again. HEEHEE i knw my blog name's nice laaa. haha thanks fer talking to me. i still miss pri school though. i'll TRY to talk to him sigh :
`to benjamin
youre a nice person to talk to online! (x i WILL get the female boxers hahahah.
`to ezra
wished youre in our cheer team hahah. that IS a compliment alright! (x
`to xaiver
thanks fer wishing me so many times! haha nice friend. nice pool friend tooo. okay yeah now youre telling me i only a few minutes left ): but youre the first one to send to use twins at 12am this morning! so thanks toooooo.
`to DADDY MOMMY JIEJIE
love you guys <3.
and to the both of you.
i dont knw. im kinda disappointed fer one. the other is just. dontknw some kind of hope. but the first is like. well its sad la. not that you'll knw what im talking abt anw.
solongGOODBYE
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maybe its time to post this. i dont knw sigh i was just looking through it and then i realised i actl tried to make things better. i dont knw, at least fer the past few months 'cos i dont have time to slowly recall stuff and i cant exactly piece everything together i always have a different impression.
and i cant help it 'cos i only knew stuff AFTER it.
so yeah. anw, srsly if you dont knw anything abt it then dont bother to read 'cos you wont understand anw. its not smthng that everyone can. its prolly fer myself to read 'cos when im gna print out all of my entries one day and start reading them. i want to rmbr this.
jan23 12:50pm
i seriously dont know what im doing and i dont know when you are probably gonna read this but i just want to send it to you anw. yeah.
i'm sorry i was pretty harsh that day. but then again. if you could put yourself in my shoes. you cld have realised why. the thing is that. you were giving the one-liner sort of stuff on tues/wed and it got me really scared. i tried to talk to you. but you werent there at all. and you werent talking to jen too. it's almost as if you wanted to cut off all the connections and stuff like that.
I WANTED SO MUCH TO TRUST YOU.
you know i really did. i was hoping for some explanation. something that will tell me that i wasnt wrong in believing you. that you actually tried but it wasnt within your means. i kinda guessed so that your phone was confiscated. i was willing to believe anything you can tell me as long as its logical. not just. plain excuses.
but what you said. really hurt.
no explanations.
just... sorry.
and you didnt even trust me enough to tell me the truth in the first place. i know you were lying because there's no such thing as 'i-had-no-time-kind-of-crap'. or maybe you just wanted to keep things frm me cuz you are feeling guilty and stuff. i
dont know. ><
and then again. i was in this angsty mood throughout. family problems and stuff like that and you completely dao-ed me then. and whats worse was that i just got scolded and was crying pretty badly when you FINALLY called and you didnt even offer an explanation.
the phone call. was not what i had hoped for. and i just hung up because i was speechless.
why am i even sending this.
ugh.
><
1:17pm
and i just really wanted to say that i dont mean even half the things i say ytd. its just. anger i guess. i hope you dont too. but if you do. then. im sorry i sent this msg and you can just bloody well ignore it. if you can get over this fast enough then i'll just try and take it as an error in judgement.
solongGOODBYE
14.9.05 ;
every night we'ld say good bye
and every night you almost cried
but now it wont be every nightBELIEVE ME THAT I LOVE YOU
BUT I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE!
yay happy birthday darling yue er mortal! (x
didnt go fer the trip tday. went out with eunice <3 and we shopped arnd. OMG I WANT THE HOODIES. ITS SUPERCOOL AND SUPERPRETTY. yay went shopping arnd but we're pretty broke i suppose. saw some really cool boxers and i wanted to get them but turns out theyre fer males 'cos they have the fittings fer yeah.
and i bought almeric's present! hahaha wheeeeeee my twin brother. im older i think :D eunice wanted t get navel piercing at heeren but so
kexi they only allow it if you show and prove that youre 16. oh well :\ mambo has nice skirts. dkny clothes fer kids are really pretty i wish i had a younger sister then i can like, dress her up! haha. oh and while eunice left me stranded fer a while ): i went into this jap shop and was searching fer takuya kimura's picture. its like $2 per piece but 'cos IM A MISER hahaha i decided not to buy.
<3 KIMURA TAKUYA
<3 ICHIHARA HAYATO
(whichever idiot who said that hes ugly can go and die!)
fastforwards to paradigm. didnt play well tday but its kinda hilarious 'cos there was this bunch of pple at the challenger's table and making lotsa funny noises. baldie is funnaaaaaye. anw it was like, GRANDPARENTS or ELDERLY week or smthng la! -.- 'cos jo was singing all the
laorenjia and
liangpuopuo songs. then halfway i suddenly heard someone sing REAL LOUD,
~GOODBYE TO YOU MY TRUSTED FRIENDDDD!~
and at first jo and eunice didnt hear it so i was the only one laughing like shit (hokay i bet i looked spastic) but anw we hid behind our table, where i was still laughing and told jo that baldie sang it. AND THEN JO SANG IT OUT LOUD TOO :\ -hides so malu laaa and fer some reason eunice me and jo just squatted behind the pool table and started laughing and laughing. it was pretty funny la haha then the guy kinda replied 'aye why you sing our song!' then we laughed more. heehee i like, lied down on the carpeted flooooor.
then dinner then back home! oh yeah at ps we saw another hoodie too. its prettaaaaaye. jo saw a red quiksilver one i think. yup but this one prolly makes my shoulders look broaaaaaaaad. the ripcurl one looks better. oh well dontknw.
<3 kimura takuya.!
<3 ichihara hayato.!
solongGOODBYE
13.9.05 ;
now im gna make you dance
get yr chance
yeah boy shake that ass
whoops i mean girl, girl girl girl
now you knw youre my world
ALRIGHT NOW LOSE IT OMGOMGOMG
BABY JUST AGREED TO GO PROM WITH ME.
LIKE AAAAAAAAH (: I DONT HAFTA WORRY ALRDY YAY.WHEEEEEEE
SUPERDUPERTINKYDINKY(x
(and baby's sitting like, hahah 2.5 m away on my left laaa (:
eunice is on my right.
I LOVE EUNICE :DD
AND BABY TOOOOOOOOO.
heehee!
solongGOODBYE
11.9.05 ;
I LOVE JIESHEN <333! (:
hahaha
SARANG HAE YOsarang hae yo ennaoj
sarang hae yo ynaffit
sarang hae yo aicyla
sarang hae yo erialc
sarang hae yo iewia
sarang hae yo assirac
sarang hae yo allebarim
sarang hae yo ecinue
sarang hae yo nortla
sarang hae yo nayrb
sarang hae yo...
niwri!
haha i SARANGHAEYO-ED EVERYONE (:
'of course you'll be hurt the first time, who wldnt!'
'well, thats unless youre gnia.'
HMMMS. UNLESS YOURE GNIA.
is that true
ohwell -shrugs.
i bet he thought the same way too.
solongGOODBYE
;
now this hot girl, shes not yr average girl
shes a morpherotic dream frm a magazine
and shes so fine, designed to blow yr mind
shes a dominatrix supermodel beauty queenliquid dreams (:
anw being random is goooood i guess. hahah its fun. ive got lotsa hmwk now. so much fer the 'i-will-complete-my-hmwk-before-they-come-back-frm-japan-then-i-can-happily-slack-thru-the-rest-of-the-days' thing i tried to convince myself ): apparently it didnt work. AT ALL.
good thing is, math and chinese are mostly completed. have i ever told you how much i loathe physics? no, not the subject itself (i like it better than bio), but the hmwk.
SPINKYSPANKYCHOOKAVOONDA
MINKATERKYCURTYSPOOOOOKAYE.
its just that once i cant get the first qns, i refuse t do the other qns even tho i alrdy knw how to do them.
oh well ):
ANW.
hahha was reading this korean fic. park jung sang is nice laaa. hes terribly sweet. i wldnt mind being lee ji won, minus all the getting hit and crying etc.
SARANG HAE YO <3
the subway station was
THE ULTIMATE its so saddening, and he still came out as a stranger and tried to console her and piggyback-ed her home. its so, unlike him laaa. anw i dont think na-na is cute. shes like, weird man. i wldnt want a sister like that. taewoo wasnt too bad, but he tricked jiwon ):
anw ICHIHARA HAYATO IS DAMN HAWWWWT.
hahah okay he looks so tomboyish and cute. but blonde hair fer him is a no-no. its uber ugly. yay hayato.
solongGOODBYE
8.9.05 ;
my loving wife is so wonderful
how small seeds gracefully to grow
into beautiful things that spring frm these rows
with their musical names and musical soundeisley's nice (:
anw yay hongjunyang rocks. i just realised they have his songs online. thats like OMG AAAH DAMN COOL. andandANDD he sang the guardian angel so prettily. (:
SHIT I HAVE AN ADDICTION FER HOT CHINA GUYS
HOT CHINA GUYS IM GNA MARRY THEM (:
likelikelike,
zhong xiao gang, hong junyang, li bin, and some more that i forgot.! oh ya the white dragon too.! hahah they got such cute and innocent faces.! (:
HOT CHINA GUYS <3i dont knw i guess they like me too. hahah baby is a china boy too, in some sense i suppose.
oh no lotsa overdue work. :\ not inclusive of holiday hmwk.! i want MORE pooldates. sighhh pool's so fun! (:
solongGOODBYE
7.9.05 ;
btw, paradigm aunty hates us ):
solongGOODBYE
6.9.05 ;
there's a broken CD player in the backseat of my car
next t the pieces of what's left frm my first guitar
there's nothing left t do but crank it up loud
it's pumping thru my head and it's knocking me outi drank cranberry 5% alcoholic drink a few days ago and OMIGOSH my ears were bloody red.! hahaha i dont think im allergic to it or anything like that but its really weird and my face was burning. well, i didnt knw my ears are that sensitive.! but its really nice though, i was sleeping on the car throughout sweetly, even though my head was like bumping against the window so much and i ended up getting a blueblack there ):
IM A MINORRR -waves
HAHAHA IS THAT ILLEGAL.
oh yeah grandma's hospitalised again -shrugs i hope she'll be okay. i heard that it was smthng abt the diabetics thing again and perhaps the gastric problem in april as well. nurses in sgh walk really fast you knw, hahaha and my maid is coooool, i like her. and yeah, while we were 'escorting' my grandma to her ward we passed by this guy on a wheelchair. he looked like those typical tchs-sji-ri poseur guy and fer a moment i thought it looked like ___ and i was so shocked. but it wasnt la haha (:
mm pringles smoky bbq is goooood (x i like it. and in a biskit nachos too.! hahaha and eu yan seng's guilinggao is super nice i always like to buy frm them.!
didnt do much on sunday, basically just went town with my parents to collect their handphones and i tried on this super nice nike apparels. but theyre pretty expensive i suppose, much more than the esprit one so oh well.! i think
ORANGE's a really pretty color! (: and we rented some movies frm bukit panjang plaza, eg. initial d,
jiang hu ah sao, meet the fockers, and constantine.
OH YEAHH CHEESE PRATA IS STILL SO NICE OMG I THINK IM FALLING IN LOVE WITH PRATAS AGAIN. HEEHEE (X OLD CHANG KEE'S CURRY PUFFS AND SOTONG STICKS ARENT THAT BAD EITHER.!
i went t aunt carol's hse on monday.! basically just slacked arnd but tday was the best man hahaha (: almeric was supposed to have squash trng today so that we can meet him and play after his trng but aye. he got the wrong time so he had tuition tday instead.! mm yeah so i met up with ezra michelle yingzhen xavier at plaza sing. went t play abit of ddr first then had lunch at kfc with them. but i was freaking full alrdy i ate so much breakfast, this is the FIRST time i didnt finish my shrooms meal and cheese fries ):
pooled frm like 1.30 - 5.30! hahaha thats a freaking five hrs. oh, and almeric came hahah and left and came again.! but i rock la hahah thankyou i totally thrashed everyone there it was super cool.
THE GUYS LOST (:
okay fine i lost to xavier
once but thats only 'cos i whacked in the eightball before my last ball. ah but im still good, hahah no tycotic shit, babehhh.! then we went t pastamania and well, basically ordered the same stuff hahaha, BAKED RICE! :D recommended by ezra. then almeric had t go fer tuition (again) and i dragged ezra and xavier t go take some really stupid neoprints! hahaha but its cool hokay.
HAPPY NEW YEAR! (x
after that ezra para-paraed, me and xaiver ddr-ed and BOOM! there was this like, uber nerdy guy popping out of nowhere and ezra was playing with him. hahahha moral of the story? dont judge a book by its cover. boy, this nerd cld really dance. i bet he learns ballet or smthng like that, he had such a straight posture hahaha its really funny looking at him ddr.
yay okay thats all i suppose. they're coming back tmr! wheeeeeeeeeeee, cool (: i better start on my hmwk tmr hahaha byebye then.!
solongGOODBYE
2.9.05 ;
your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you cld
recall the moments that once have
retract the footsteps that brought us to this favor
i wldnt ask this of you okay yay i just bought the i zhou kan thing i think its pretty cool, features all the top 24 contestants fer the superstar thing. then again, im prolly only looking out fer hongjunyang (:
which reminds me.
HE LOOKED DAMN HOT
like omg im melting :DD
theres really a great change in him, you can tell [: ezra says he likes junyang's hair. well, i think junyang's really cool so wheeeeee.
and i wna play pool tday but wrong timing. sigh, all of them gone its becoming so boring. oh well, i still want my heizhima [:
btw, engaged dont be sad hokay. its not good to be angsty.! yup, so cheer up laaa! [:
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