why are you so in love with bittersweet romance?

27.2.06 ;

oh. By the way, I moved.

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(that is, if you're too slow to realise)

solongGOODBYE

22.2.06 ;

near death, last breath & barely hanging on

i finally fnished IT.! haha darlings you'll knw what im talking about :D anw, engaged the entry wasnt meant for you dont worry (: i havent gotten angry at you since my birthday last year. and thats cos youre too cute for me -pinches yr cheek-

i feel as if i broke my back. and my left shoulder's acting up again =x im unhealthy grrr... woohoo i love my current timetable (maybe cos lazy gnia doesnt take any core humanities or electives this sem) i dont have much lessons everyday and i've got free periods everywhere (: and this is fantastic cos i need these time to do my homework.

class meeting was fun today! i was like 'oh lets go tanning & then we can play beach volleyball too (:' & then jingmin went 'oh then we can all become the same race as abi. ehh but abi cannot tan right, later he disappear how' i mean, it may not sound funny right now but back then we were laughing like shit. we ate vegetarian stuff for mentoring today! haha its quite cool okay, we're doing it for leslie's sake. ooh & next week im meeting up with jingmin&steph&kris & other girls to make something NICE for the guys :D

BTW WE HAVE A CLASS FRUIT (x

had dance today - we did salsa! i think im quite lousy at it =x but salsa is so cool. hoho the twist and the shake! er fen taught us wrongly at first, haha so we learnt chacha too. chacha's harder you know. ALTRON'S MY PARTNER (:

WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF
I SAID I DIDNT NEED YOU
COS I WOULDNT BELIEVE YOU
IF YOU SAID THE SAME TO ME

solongGOODBYE

20.2.06 ;

ITS NOT A FASHION STATEMENT
ITS A DEATHWISH

mm currently in the process of updating my songs. my ipod's getting full! but no way am i gonna remove michael jackson's songs. hoho i re-discovered my love for him :D i so adore emmjay -grins-

solongGOODBYE

19.2.06 ;

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my
Hear your voice again
Can we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been

Maybe you and me so
Kiss me like you did
My heart stopped bleeding
Such a softer sin

I'm melting, I'm melting
In your eyes I lost my place
Could stay a while

And I'm melting in your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me now

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you
I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
Why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love

I'm melting, I'm melting
In your eyes I lost my place
Could stay a while

And I'm melting in your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me

You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now
Take my hand
We could take our heads off
Stay in bed
Just make love that's all
Just stay with me now

solongGOODBYE

17.2.06 ;

;making love out of nothing at all

TODAY'S VISIT SUCKED.
hurhurrr wanna guess why. anyway i cannot tolerate liars and pple who channel their anger to you just cos they happen to be agitated at the same time. so anyway i was just sulking throughout the whole trip =x i mean, yeah i was pretty sad when we were walking past all those graves cos those people died so horribly, & i felt quite sorry for them. but i dont get why most of my classmates are so ill-mannered. they disgust me. there's something called respect for the dead. oh yeah and it was bloody hot too.

but after that we had some informal cheer training, i succesfully completed a few front flips. hoho anyway we accomplished quite alot today, as compared to the rest of our trngs.

tiff&me played pool with nat on thursday (: cabbed down to paradigm again! haha we totally thrashed him (singles&team), & the games were all super fun we couldnt stop laughing :D and poor guy had to pay for taxi fare cos he betted with us with it and he lost the game.! ate at mos burger with tiff later, woohoo i like their fishburgers -grins-

WHERE DO THE BAD FOLKS GO WHEN THEY DIE
THEY DONT GO TO THE HEAVENS WHERE THE ANGELS FLY

solongGOODBYE

15.2.06 ;

she's got a smile that it seems to me, reminds me of childhood memories where everything was as fresh as the bright blue sky. Now and then when I see her face she takes me away to that special place and if I stared too long I'd probably break down and cry.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

thanks to all for the cute chocolates & flowers & cards and whatnot (: haha today was fun cos the moment we reached school everyone starting laying out their stuff on the concourse and were distributing them around. i think we looked like those pasar malam vendors =\ i made cheesecake in wine glasses & bought chocolates+flowers. i was quite insulted when they thought the cheesecake was wax =x

classes were tolerable, heehee and i nearly fell asleep in maths again. ANYWAY! on monday andre slept in class and ms ang was taking pictures of him from different angles. it was really funny, but i felt quite mean cos i was sitting next to him and i didnt wake him up. poor guy haha.

almeric came over! (: we talked for a while, ate at macs & then went home. haha i've just realised that for two consecutive years of vday, i've been having dinner & taking train back to choachukang with him. happy one year anniversary of friendship! :D but school should really end earlier, all the year fours end at 6, so that doesnt exactly leave us with alot of time to go out! =x

AAAH have i mentioned that i got A1 for olevels chinese -grins- oh, and benjamin found out about the prank vday letter so its not fun anymore ):

er, and happy birthday to irwin!

solongGOODBYE

12.2.06 ;

IM GONNA TAKE YOU TO A PLACE YOUVE NEVER BEEN BEFORE!

i love tiff&kris! woohoo :D cabbed down to paradigm on friday and played from 12-2.30 (: it was fun! and we taught kris how to play. hoho we're all talented peeps. anyway we were like, the first ones there and the last to leave.

had sushi buffet at dining@sakae at cityhall later, food was okay but the service SUCKED horribly =x yeah the waitresses had baaaad service and they were so cheap they didnt buy enough spoons for chawanmushis. we ate nine cups in total haha! one for everytime the guy behind tiff blew his nose. er we laughed alot at him cos he was so funny :D oh, the only good thing is that they give you salmon sashimi, and this nice dessert called shira-something zenzai.

went over to tiff's house for sleepover! (: SHES NEAT, i cant believe it haha. eh her sister's 'lydia's hotel' thing was so cute, and her sister's nice too. anyway tiff looks exactly like her mom, and we saw her nude baby pictures HAHA. watched some movies, called some people, talked to people online and made stupid poems with the blacks language (er no racism intended!) and then we fell asleep. but hoho it was fun lah.

ANYWAY IM PISSED AT MY FAMILY COS OF THE VDAY THING. AAH PISSED PISSED PISSED.

solongGOODBYE

9.2.06 ;

;hit me with your best shot

hohoho so happy! i just sent another email to lysh (: mm thinking about lysh makes me happy so yeah! :D

er had DINCH at pastamania with tiff daniel xavier at ps before playing pool. whee im so pro i beat the guys. but daniel is really good, we were quite close =x but yeah we had fun - i always liked playing pool alot, the satisfaction's too great when you improve (: AND I DID!

eating my cheesecake now haha. i just found another way to package my vday presents so yay :D but it costs so much more so i think i'll reduce the number of pple im giving (:

wednesday was dance! haha i really hope we'll do salsa cos it looks so cool. then again, we'll hafta dance in like, stilettos and we probably cant make it anyway. the juniors look interesting haha i hope theyre good.

IM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO TOMORROW. OMG YAY. AND MERLOT DOES NOT MAKE ME DRUNK, MY SISTER IS SO FUNNY.

solongGOODBYE

6.2.06 ;

hey, you know theyre all the same. you know youre doing better on your own so dont buy in. live right now, just be yourself, it doesnt matter if its good enough for someone else. it just takes some time little girl, youre in the middle of the ride. everything everything will be just fine. everything everything will be all right

man i loved jimmyeatworld so much haha. and i still do.

anyway sometimes i wonder about stuff - is it worth it. is it worth losing friends like nat&oliver over someone who doesnt really give a damn but just insult them out of boredom. i think its time for us to take the world seriously, to really grow up and abandon the childishness. growing old is inevitable, growing up is optional - okay this is a stolen quote from one of my msn contacts, cant really remember who it is but it's probably the only thing that i know about growing up. its quite true anyway.

crimson&clover,
over&over.

to some extent i think im some sort of traditionalist, in terms of beliefs and stuff like that. in fact i think my parents taught me well about respect. i find it hard to believe that some people actually dont give a damn about it. it's quite scary actually, and i can never figure out why is it so. its like those type of things you grow up to believe in, and its puzzling why others could think in other manners. and now im talking about respecting an individual for who he is, and respect the fact that hes an equal and is entitled to his own opinion.

isnt it ironic that the same person who cursed/insulted about almost every single person i know (even if she herself doesnt know that person) & chides me for making friends with those pple, turn around someday and accuse myself of limiting myself to a small social circle.

anyway i dont like to make scenes so i think recently ive been rather hoping to slip away unnoticed. that's better actually, lesser contact means less chance of getting yelled at.

solongGOODBYE

5.2.06 ;

;do they have radios in heaven?

wahh im so addicted to this song, plain white t's good! (: anyway i like happyhappy songs, and i have NO IDEA how american hi-fi make a song like 'the breakup song', which is meant to be sad, sound so happy and well, lively.

went to my godmother's house yesterday, and my godsister was showing me all the recipes for muffins/tarts/cakes etc. im gonna make around 40+ this year i think! heehee i made tiramisu and cheesecake with mommy last night, and i found out that mascarpone's the name of a type of cheese :D

friday was housemeeting. DO YOU KNOW I OVERSLEPT AND ONLY CABBED TO SCHOOL COS THERE WAS A FREAKING HOUSEMEETING. uhm i suppose it went rather well. but theo's no longer captain and i think that's quite sad cos he was doing just fine. anyway we voted benjamin! (: i think he's quite capable so yeah. and yingzhen's now vice-capt. AND WE GOT COOL JUNIORS HAHA THAT'S THE HAPPY THING.

oh yeah then we went to have cheapjapfood at clementi again -grins- but for some unknown reason i felt so lethargic i went home to sleep right after that.

solongGOODBYE

3.2.06 ;

i cant believe i hung around
with you all this time
you drove me crazy with your ocd
girl youre outta your mind
im counting on ufos
to beam me up
i just dont know how long
i can take this shit
im over it girl you gotta go

its over we're over
just like in crimson & clover
we're sinking & i'm thinking
how the hell did we get so stupid
its the end, ex-girlfriend
i dont care what you think of me now
so long youre gone
this is the break up song

one more thing before you go
Wwuld you please give me
my records back
my bloody valentine, the pixies,
cheap trick and back in black
you can keep the dog we bought
but you cant go near the standard bar
dont hang around
dont call my friends
they wont know who you are

its over we're over
just like in crimson & clover
we're sinking & i'm thinking
how the hell did we get so stupid
its the end, ex-girlfriend
i dont care what you think of me now
so long youre gone
this is the break up song
so long youre gone
this is the breakup song

its over we're over
just like in crimson & clover
we're sinking & i'm thinking
how the hell did we get so stupid
its the end, ex-girlfriend
i dont care what you think of me now
so long youre gone
this is the break up song

THIS IS THE BREAKUP SONG.

hey i typed that out.

solongGOODBYE

2.2.06 ;

;i'll always have a sunrise

today was fun! (: but kris didnt come so lessons got pretty boring too.

cabbed down to ps, had lunch at kfc with mira tiff xavier & derrick kwok, then we went to play pool at paradigm! :DD i'm happy cos im quite up to form today (: won derrick at singles. but hes really good now, i think i might lose the next time =x tiff beat xavier at singles too! (HAHA XAVIER! I MAKE SURE YOU READ THIS!)the girls nearly won when we teamed up, but it's okay cos we'll thrash them soon ^^

i guess tiff mira & me were really hyper in the taxi and at kfc (: we were laughing our asses off. yay i wanna record tiff' loud and off-key singing when she's in the showers next year! and mira's hahaha hmhmhm hohoho was so hilarious. eh but the poor guys had no idea what we were talking about. haha BRAS BASAH!

ddr-ed later! (: it was pretty fun, but its hard to step in my dunks cos theyre quite loose. er, tiff's good! [:

oh btw, this morning, the cat jumped onto my canteen table and meowed loudly at me. i think it wanted my fries =x & i screamed like shit and ran behind some pillar to hide and got gracekng to help me carry the cat away. er, i got quite a shock. cats are scary~ -nodsnods.

solongGOODBYE

;

;we're gonna die like this you know

NO MORE PINEAPPLE TARTS! WAHHH AND I HATE ALMERIC.

solongGOODBYE