why are you so in love with bittersweet romance?

31.8.05 ;

momma tell me do you like it
i knw you like it
its written all over your face dont fight it
you like it
more than i like it
so put it all over your face dont bite it

okay i hereby conclude that most of my entries are read by nushs pple yay okay whatever (:

i hear junyang's name on tv now. he rocks man.!

kay anw i didnt blog since friday [: i think im getting lazy. oh well, nvm just a brief summary.!

friday26th-
yay last day of term (: uhm, had tchers' day celebration, we cheered fer jo fer her choir thing, mira aiwei and BABY fer their dance performance.! it was all pretty cool, and gregory and nicholas wong did a fantastic performance with the chinese flute-like thing and the drums. heehee, all ph34r the power of uhm. tchs and ri.! (yay top schools what, so obviously they receive good coaching [:) wait, nic wong was in RIco right, i think engaged is in it too! but i dont knw what he plays though :
kay then bball trng was hilarious, mr yang was pretty nice. fastforwards to mass dance at the council room to ms flo and the rest of the SLs. me and tiff totally disgraced ourselves. oh well, at least we had the uhm. courage (: and then mira jo me went to macs to talk abt guys.! hahaha. its stupid.

saturday27th-
nothing much. oh ya xavier pranked me tday i think. bunch of stupid sji guys hahaha but it was entertaining i suppose (:

sunday28th-
okay yay this was a super fun day. almost all of the cheerleaders, with the exception of eunice and tiff, went t mira's hse.! oh ya, yingzhen followed us too (: mm, went to watch 'you got served' on starhub demand tv, and yup, even baby was awed.
i like marques houston, omari grandberry and maybe a lil bit of christopher jones.! hahahah then we're doing stupid stuff, like taking weird pictures of ourselves trying to act dao or act like SUPERSTARS with mira's shades but yeah, we had a lot of fun. hahahha mira looks like a taitai, kris looks like some bigshot trying to hide from the paparazzi, bryan looks like mangxiaaaa, yingzhen looks like some fbi person, aiwei looks like some poor abused wife, jo looks like a mafia boss, BABYALTRON looks like a star, and uhm. according to jo, i look like some person who's been bashed up and was trying to hide the wounds. oh well, then after that babyaltron jo mira aiwei and me went to eat duck rice while the rest left, so yup, we have decided that we're gna take part in the artsfest and we're the duckricegroup.! hahah yay (:

oh yes, engaged left fer malaysia on this day too.!

monday29th-
start of camp. fastforwards all the way to high elements which wasnt even challenging at all. the helmets were sweaty and disgusting but -shrugs what can we expect. OH and we saw eddie.! (: yay ELIZA hahahha. he looks the same i guess. then flying fox which was okayishly fun, but once again the sweat frm the helmet made me feel like vomitting, but me being the good girl (: didnt complain there at all.
fastforwards to nightwalk in the darkforest, me kris jingmin yiyi jenkin kenwei and lawrence were in a grp.

it wasnt exactly very scary, but bcos of the way they said it, it made me rethink abt some pple in my life. i guess, at certain point of time we will tend to rely on certain people alot, but then after awhile, maybe sadly the pple wld change. i mean, i do hope it doesnt but i guess thats just being naive. like for example, if this camp was conducted anytime near january to may this year, perhaps the person who i think have the capability of making me safe wld be nat, cos of the friendship back then. but if its now i suppose it'll feel super weird. so yup, i was thinking of altron and engaged alot, and yes engaged was in malaysia and i missed him quite a bit as well (yay you better miss me too). but baby was being really cute cos i was like

'oh no baby if anything happens to me i'll scream then will you come and save me not'

and hes like

'ya provided i can find you laaaaa'

which was really sweet and cute (: oh and the guys in our group were singing lotsa songs on the way, which kept us quite distracted cos they all cant sing and they were trying too hard to do acapella. heehee then sleeping in tents etc.

tuesday30th-
woke up pretty early, supposed to do high elements again but it was raining so we did cityhunt. walked quite a bit. hahahah 302 and 303 we're damn cool la we went to so many places rightrightright. and we walked there too.! uhm, frm cdans to swimming complex to IMM to jurong east library to snowcity to chinese garden to spc petrol station then back to cdans.! hahahah we all rock la kay. then blahblah taught the yr1s how to do mass dance. initially i was quite scared cos like, they arent the cooperative sort, but yeah tiff and the rest of the cheerleaders helped me alot. jenkin was the only one in the his gang that danced, but okay la, it wasnt really a dance anw.

then campfire where all cheerleaders just went crazy and super high even though everyone else was like 'huh what, so boring' (: hey its not our fault kay, we're just trying to make it seem more like a campfire, cos we're pathetic enough. yay most of them did the mass dance hahahha which was quite a relief cos we're worried that we'll screw it up and fail our first task then disappoint ms flo. it didnt turn out that well, but i guess thats the best we cld come up with within that short period of time.

then war games, which was quite fun cos hahaha me and jo were hiding behind the walls of the huts in the shadows. then some sec one named cedric came, oliver came, reico came and left, another sec one girl came, and then kai hui came. so we're like this bunch of fools just squatting down there hoping that the hunters wont catch us and bring us to the torture chamber (i still have no idea whats the pledge thing). got caught thrice :\ first time was to liyoung and florence and they let me go! hahah then to mr chong to do some 'im-an-aeroplane' thing then the last one was to ms steph tan where we had to kneel on the rocks and answer her qns. jo was like, damn good at giving textbook answers la hahha then after that she smashed our heads into this mix of colgate toothpaste and strawberry-like gel i think. it was so disguting and our faces were so dirty. but we got -ahem- 'special permission' frm ms lee to wash our faces etc. then most of the cheerleaders 'cept the guys and tiff managed to get into the same tent somehow after switching alot illegally. hahhaha sleeping arrangement was like this, aiwei;me;jo;mira;eunice;kris. had some sort of girls night out but cos it was too late we didnt prank anyone. aiwei and jo bloodyhell suddenly started hugging each other and i was in the middle so im like squished in between the both of them! their legs are so heavy :\ and it was stickyyyy.

wednesday31st-
yay last day. generally nothing much. but then turns out aiwei and eunice left straight frm there and bcos of this etc me and jo quarrelled at school. oh well anw after that me mira jo and kris still got to macs and hahahha we stayed there fer so long.! at first when jieshen hari joshua benedict caiyue thejas were there we're just staring at them cos we're too bored and we didnt wna go home. then after that we just slept there fer 30minutes+ i think. heehee we're so worried that the macs staff wld chase us out cos we alrdy finished our food long time ago so we placed one small fry in the middle of the tables and pretended that we cldnt figure out who shld eat the last fry. and the worst thing was that we're 4 pple occupying 8 seats (:

then went home.! sigh tmr they're all leaving fer japan alrdy im gna be so bored. mm i shall sleep everyday and force engaged to talk to me! ahahha.

oh yeah some reflections. i really hate pple who love to show off the fact that theyre a student leader but however refuse to take on any form of responsiblity. i think its fucking annoying. i think its pretty obvious in my grp. and since pple like me are not SLs, therefore we do not have the authority that you guys do, so why bother to stand up and waste our times trying to get the whole mentor grp together.

speaking of which, i think the SL system is a bit screwed up, in the sense that most of the mentor reps are randomly chosen, rather than based on their own abilities, and some are reaaaaaally lazy and unfit fer any leadership roles (actl i dont have much right t complain cos when theyre choosing reps i was sleeping at the back of the class and acting cool [:). so when the camp comes, they always like to push the responsibility to another person by saying, 'oh blahblah is an SL he/she can lead' but the point is, if youre a real leader you dont wait to see whether others wld lead or not, you just do it. cos thats what the leadership camp fer you was all about. isnt it kinda basic.

and the issue abt being gentlemanly. srsly, i dont think its just on a personal basis, im pretty sure many other girls wld agree with me. okay i knw my own standards are like skyhigh but the least that they cld have done was to not go underground right. its really saddening to see guys our age being so childish and immature. esp my mentor grp.

kay, the only guys frm yr3s who i think are quite gentlemanly wld be jieshen caiyue shaun mikel tiancheng hari-and-bryan-and-gabriel-and-jenkin-and-roy-and-royston(to some extent) thejas nat benedict theo nicwong altron and maybe a couple more that i missed out. that is so pathetic ]:

hokay i want my heizhima
BLACK SESAME PASTE!

solongGOODBYE

25.8.05 ;

troubled times
you knw i cannot lie
i'm off the wagon and i'm hitching a ride

you knw ali baba loves me im gna have scary dreams abt them tonight. srsly, muthu is FUGLAAAAYE. yes and their crew too. jak is like, super gay so dont need to say. and hes ugly too. and all those stupid audiences are just, replications of each other.

tmr is the last day of term.! yay im gna play so much. but its blardy unfair cos stupid sji starts their final yr exmas when we start our term two.? that'll be so cool cos we'll then have so much time to slack.! in fact, they begun english test this week -.-

kay physics im screwed kay. i went t school at 7.15 to do my cheat sheet and start learning.! hahahha lawrence that slacker too. whatever hahaha next term then i jiayou abit more (: im proud of me and kris's last minute work.! yay so pro.

she effing ponned tday.
but kris is pretty when she lets down her hair.! and uhm. when she doesnt eat watermelons hahhahhaha. kay im gna do my test now yay byebye (: tmr we hafta show ms flo alrdy :\ whoops.

on a sidenote: BABY IS UBER CUTE OMG I -HEART- BABY IM SURE BABY LOVES ME TOO.!

there are so many pple im loving lately. engaged, junyang and BABY! hahahaha nd divorced too cos he just popped up yay i havent talked to him on msn for a long time too. and yeah speaking of which irwin also popped up to say hello how r u then disappear. (its so him) oh well, i think nanyang rocks.

solongGOODBYE

24.8.05 ;

shes a scented magazine
looking sharp and living clean
living well and dressed to kill
but she looks like hell to me

i had a weird dream again. its about running away again.! ]: all about escaping away. someday i shall go analyse my dreams you knw it'll be quite cool.

heehee yupp smthng along the lines of running from SOMEWHERE then i took a bus. i think its 175, and then it went past my stop, then i thought of alighting at the next one and then walking back or smthng like that but then the weather suddenly turned really dark and there was still no bus stop.! then yeah went on to the highway, i found the place surprisingly familiar i think it once appeared in my other dream, so basically i tried to call my parents to pick me up from the NEW busstop cos i didnt dare to walk back myself. however, for some weird stupid reason, we ended up at some really complex peach colored building. its somehow more like a campus cos it kinda extends out into different parts and its really big and there are gardens arnd it. okay i dont knw what happened but the weather turned all sunny again.

then there are all these pple trying to get me to go up to some level through the lift and i was trying to leave but they didnt let me. oh yeah then when i was like, trying to run away, samuel suddenly appeared like behing me and stretched out his hands, as if trying to prevent me from running. hahahah i was damn cool i was like 'aye samuel no use one la get lost' cos i mean, obviously thats a useless move. okay anw somehow they managed to get me t the third floor, and it turned out like some school cip event thing, only that theyre damn strict. oh yeah, while i was in the lift i was msging my parents and trying to tell them where i was so that they could come and fetch me back home. mm, back to cip, we're supposed to help the pple in the third floor (with down syndrome) with their hmwk etc. a mix between csp between marian centre and bridging worlds i guess. but the thing is, youre not allowed to switch on your handphones etc if not smthng really bad will happen to you.

the girl i got was pretty nice and all, arnd the age of 10. yeah i think i was trying to help her with english then she started talking to me about her passion for dancing then she said she danced hiphop fusion style and i was really amazed. and then some crap abt being in the national team (which i pretended to believe) of dancers etc. then i went to my bag and tried to msg my parents without the officers seeing it yeah. mom sent me a msg but i didnt see.

aye then afterwards some brief stuff that i forgot but i knw i dreamt of yingzhen and jasmine too.! hahahha. okay weird dreaaaaaaaams.
I MEAN, SINCE WHEN DO THEY LOCK YOU IN FER CIP?

kay studied fer bio with kris tday from 8-11.! we're pro-karyotic.! hahahah kay its quite fun. tday is BIODAY hurhur.
tmr is physics test.! think im gna start studying and do my cheat sheet now. byebye! (:

solongGOODBYE

23.8.05 ;

i dont knw what im fighting fer
or why i hafta scream
i dont knw why i instigate
or say what i dont mean
i dont knw how i got this way
but i'll nvr be alright
so im breaking the habit
im breaking the habit TONIGHT

okay lyrics come so naturally hahahha somehow i rmbr them after so long but anw i still like it.

tday was pretty okay and slackish.! [: and i got back my confiscated notebook with all my darling hongjunyang and lyrics page hahahha from mr lim.! so uhm. yay?

andandand i kinda cleared some hmwk in school.! therefore i hereby conclude that my hse is NOT a conducive environment to study in since im mostly tempted by the computer and my softcomfy bed.! which is calling out to me this veyr moment too. so i guess i shall sleep after i finish blogging. im gna START studying bio in school tmr. it looks easy [: yay but i havent been paying 100% attention in class though.

need more friends with wings
all the angels i know
put concrete in my veins
i'ld always walk home alone
so i became lifeless
just like my telephone

kay then had bball and obviously yingzhen's team won la. theres her and the twins.! [: who can play well too so yeah.! then me jasmine kris and yingzhen stayed back a lil bit to practice on our layups, cos we're super lousy at it. yingzhen can qu si laaa and mr young/yang was pretty nice. he only laughed when i cldnt lift my right leg, well at least he didnt scold [:

then we walked t 7-eleven. jo got pudding me and kris strawberry yoghurt and yingzhen lipton tea.! hahahha AND I TELL YOU, when we were walking the route under the trees, there was practically birdshit descending frm the sky.! :\ and it was so disguting i was so scared. blehhh and i was worried that part of it wld drop into my yoghurt and i wldnt knw and i wld eat it all up. hahhaha so anw i was screaming alot cos 1) its disguting 2) they bluffed me that there was birdshit on my shit, which is like ewwww waaaaay disgusting.

then cos almeric happened t have tuition at the ghim moh there so we met him at buona vista mrt station, and went back together.! yuppp hahahha talking abt yurni with yinghzhen jo and kris. SHE GAVE ME A FREAKING 3 MARKS FER TOM SAWYER ASSIGNMENT HOKAY. that fat lady. hmphhh.

aye then me and almeric went fer dinner at lot one afterwards.! ate at longjohns. im not gna eat there again cos they make me feel guilty cos poor afghanistan children have no food to eat and we are wasting the uhm. crumbs. and potato is disgusting cos ive eaten alot of food made frm potato tday.! kay must rmbr, im a goooood counsellor. im giving you a bday present worth millions so treasure it kay (:

went back home and ate my third dinner. and then im blogging. and then im gng to have some sweet cold drink to please my throat then im sleeping.! yay bio test tmr, that means i'll clear it soon. even thought i havent even started studying. [:

solongGOODBYE

22.8.05 ;

rejected since day one
my name is, Bastard Son
ive been dead so many times ive lost count
blue collar working man
defaceless masterplan
but go work with a mental side on

yay just drank orange juice (: my mom made it. hahahah frm sunkist oranges.! :DD i always like sunkist alot yeah.? cos theyre super sweet and nice.

tday im gna do alot of hmwk.! (i think, or rather hope) im listening to so many songs hahaha theyre so cute. and i rmbred oliver's billy talent and theyre so cute. but not those kind of perv songs that he showed us hahaha.

im proud of SINGAPORE,
you shld be too [: its goooooood.

solongGOODBYE

21.8.05 ;

he calls the mansion not a hse but a tomb
hes always choking frm the stench in the fume
the wedding party all collapsed in the room
so send my resignation to the bride and the groom

yo my grandma's sick again ]: yeah went t fetch her t the hospital frm bedok etc.! so spent quite a lot of time away frm home.

i wna hurry go sleep then i can strat dreaming again. hahahah go tag please you lazy idiots. tralalalaaaaaye i love anonymity. or however you spell it.

i think bloggin lowers my standard of english. not hanging arnd lysh and claire lowers my standard of english too.! hahahah cos im too used to short forms and i dont like to type with apostrophes anw.

im rmbring what actl made my day sweet on the sixteenth.! my memory's coming back darling that rocks hokay [: and then all those miscellaneous stuff. and all those pple tenging me back then. its fun. and cool [:

AND ITS GOOD TO REFLECT AND RMBR I SUPPOSE. HISTORY DRAMA, TRACK TRNGS, 213 MODERN DANCE, CHORAL NIGHT, LIT SYMPOSIUM, PUBLIC SPEAKING, CALTEX, NATIONALS etc.

theyre so wonderously fun and i think i gotta hurry go save up the history drama pictures.! hahahha opium girls with weixin and ziwei and jo chin.!

and our jnrs.
tsktsk yue chin arhhhhhh. all nvr win again.! hahahha.

solongGOODBYE

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i'm sick
i'm sick now
dont touch me

yo i just realised that baby loves me alot. as much as i love him yay. (:
HE CALLS ME GENIE [:
only loved ones calls me either genie or gnia. hahahah you realise some pple stop calling me that after like, i stopped talking t them.

anw leon made me happy ytd cos like. he sent me a msg abt the good friends thing and yay its not a mass msg :DD

friday was bball trng and we had t do layups. 30 each kay.! per side, somemore must get in then counted :\ nat was like. yeahyeah must get in then WHAT HAPPENED IN THE END HUH -.- all the boys didnt do. ayeee all those wna join bball ones still slack like crazy. tsktsk this is not the correct attitude. yingzhen me kris jasmine yunwei so guai lorh.!

aye oh ya and we spoke t mr chong. -smirks qingzheziqing stupid pple who went arnd spreading rumors cuz they think its damn cool. well im sorry t tell you guys the cheerleaders are srsly considering the slander case. mhmm, legal rights kay. we're being nice if we actl drop the matter alrdy. its regarding INTEGRITY, we're very pissed. and all of you sec ones who actl read blogs and have a guilty conscience, uhm we dont mind apologies (:

saturday.! yay i love jasper my cousin hahahah hes so lame and cute. yay and at least he talks to me quite a lot too [: we watched you got served on the demand tv this time.

OMGOMGOMG ITS DAMN COOL
i wna be abe t dance like david and elgin in it.! :DD you got served hahah. and like, the poor young boy died.! :\ but its still super cool, all the hiphop and breakdancing omg shit i wna learn i wna learn so desperately. if we can ever kope it i think we can even win nationals competition. hahaha but the point is we cant.

THEY ROCK BIG TIME. period (:

aye uhm. oh ya i dreamt alot last night too [: dreaming is good. except i always have very weird ones. the day before its about this stupid silver insect thing in my bag and its super scary cos i cldnt get it out and it keeps having babies and the babies are horrible monsters that come out one after another. i think my imagination's running veryvery wild :\ then abit about playgrounds which really made me very sad. yeah i cldnt climb up no matter what while everyone's just carrying on and playing and having fun.

then last night's one was at this foreign place and it was quite cool. at some ulu factory sort of place. and i realised a whole lot of my dreams were about running away. i dont knw why and who im running away from but i just knew that i had to run. and yeah then there was this person who kinda helped me get away but i cldnt see his face anw and he just told me he wld help me escape so i followed him.! but after a while some other guy came and caught me and uh i woke up. then fastforwards t shopping at some shop in some country and there were lotsa pretty clothes [: and then suddenly we're at some running track place and me mira shengsen and some other guy were running. hahah i think its super cool kay. mm yeah i think some sort of trng, only that the weather was cooling and super nice and yeah.! we're running 400m. then mira was next to me all along and we're talking about lotsa stuff (:

kay then i woke up. i have cute dreams kay [: its rare that i rmbr hahaha. but there was one abt the shopping one that left a huge impression in my mind. very long time ago.

oh yeah and.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY CHIN YUN XIAN (:

hahahha fer 20th august. my ~~dasao~~ vicecapt rocks.

solongGOODBYE

19.8.05 ;

stories go, stories leave
they imprint on my mind
TIME IS WASTED AND GONE
LIFE IS PASSING ON AGAIN
THE WHITE LIGHTS LEADING YOU ON
IS THIS THE END?

yo nyrocks my pompoms off too (: hahahah they had cross country tday.! im super impressed with them, get better each yr.

sam's first.! (: 16.30 i think, hahahah not bad la. then second's my daaaaarling claire.! (: love her to bits. but i wonder what happened t wenrui and ailin and peggy and suhui.! :\ heard badminton pple ran super well though. but yay they still like, koped the first few places la.

MOMMY ROCKS IM SO PROUD OF HER
<33333!
THIRTEENTH! WHAT SAY YOU MAN.

hahhahah somemore nanyang standard super high.! and she like, ran every other day only, not everyday. and she ran fer fun.! hahahha then suddenly do super well in xc. [: yay im gna play pool with joleen and mommy joo someday.!

anw oh yes shanru was THIRD. freaking third omg i didnt knw she can run longd too.! hahahah this is such a good yr fer her, 400m hurdles (ithink) 100m and 400m.! she seems t be able to run well in anything. ahh lysh didnt run cos she had moot parliament project. so sad.!

mm, oh yes and natalia got 15.! not bad aye. last yr she got 14 though.
hahaha some chuting jnr ran 15.32 siao arh break the record alrdy. damn pro la.

mm anw tmrs gna be tiff's bday.! (: yay sarah and almeric and xavier came over tday. then we went t macs.! (: hahah ate dinner there with them, was quite fun. mira and yingzhen and jo were there too.! havent seen xavier and sarah since... june.! hahha im giving tiff belated bday present.! [: you dont mind riiiiiight. hahahha expected la. anw we havent got yingzhen's very belated one lehhh.!

solongGOODBYE

18.8.05 ;

have been listening to breaking the habit again. its uber nice. i think its gna be like, one of those favorite songs forever type [: was reminded of so many stuff; turf city cross country run, taking 67, track trng, the clarity blog, leon etc.

i like the song ALOT.
:DD

solongGOODBYE

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who's t say you'll hafta go
(i cld go all night)
well say you'll hafta go
(i cld go all...)
to hell with you and all yr friends
to hell with you and all yr friends,
it's on

I GOT A BAD FEELING ABOUT THIS
I GOT A BAD FEELING ABOUT THIS

oh hahhaha all of them liking 'right now' by sr71 one. mm, i loved it alot in february but nvm anw. think i sent it t lawrence back then somehow jac got it yeah and kenwei too. but im pretty sure its my version cuz the name was wrong and it's 'kick me when im high' instead. fiona got it too, now.

BUT KRISSEH AND ME GOT NEW FAV SONG.

'cos shes bittersweet
she knocks me off my feet
and i cant help myself
i dont want anyone else
shes a mystery
shes just too much fer me
and i keep coming back fer more
shes just the girl im looking fer

hahha hokay maybe just mine. but i think its super nice. and the romantics too. i like stupid cute songs (: but unwrittenlaw is too good man. they havent even got sucky songs yet (:

tried t pon art tday with lawrence hahha but then we knew that some pple wld be so extra and go tell the tcher (ie. eugene chiong) i made a nice award thingy! hahahha like the one we saw at queensway.

havent played pool fer a really long time. i need to go play at paradigm.! ><

solongGOODBYE

17.8.05 ;

WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU
- the romantics

what i like abt you
you hold me TIGHT
tell me im yr only one
wna come over tonight, yeah

youre whispering in my ear
tell me all the things that i wna hear
'cos thats true
thats what i like abt you

what i like abt you
you really knw how to dance
when you go up down jump arnd
think abt true romance, yeah

youre whispering in my ear
tell me all the things that i wna hear
'cos thats true
thats what i like abt you
thats what i like abt you
thats what i like abt you.!

HAHAH THEY ROCK. CUZ THATS WHAT I LIKE ABT YOOOOOO [:

aye went t sakae sushi buffet with krisseh tday! hahah supposed t go on a dinner/hmwk date but we ended up stuffing ourselves with sushi.! i think i wont be able t eat salmon fer a long time. hahah and watermelons fer kris.!

yay maths trail tday was surprisingly okay. but I1 and I2 were supposed t win, right lawrence? hahah nvm its some lousy book voucher anw. [: ayeeeee i was whining abt not eating sushi while at the esplanade hahahha then we were all buying haagen daz icecream. toffee creme.! flavor of the mth :D

wheeeeeeeeeeee we are smart asses at physics. hurhur i meant it ya knw.
i think unwritten law rocks alot.
and hongjunyang is my superstar i always loved him
im not giving kelvin sympathy points cuz i dont think he deserved them. he cant be a superstar can he. he doesnt have the visual appeal alrdy.

kay gtg. i wna take more pictures [: byebye.

solongGOODBYE

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HONGJUNYANG HAS REVIVED (:
HES UBER CUTE
AND HE LOVES ME
AND I LOVE HIM TOO.

solongGOODBYE

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yo my hongjunyang is sick.
IM SUPER SAD
i always loved him alot.

solongGOODBYE

16.8.05 ;

SHE SAYS WHERE YA GNG WHERE YA BEEN!
flip thru the script and tell me what it says
skip thru the story tell me how it ends
she says that we're probably better off as friends
on and on and yeaaaaaah

OOH I LOVE UNWRITTEN LAW AH THEY ROCK SO MUCH HOKAY (:

uhm i hate being wrongly accused so yeah. dont doubt my integrity cuz im sure yingzhen and us have it. im kinda proud of our upbringing. we're good kids, only that we're more expressive. maybe they shld go talk t ge branch. they havent seen po linn yet. only that fo's so smart and she talks so well they cant go past her. and claire as well. im sure she'll be as pissed.

doesnt mean when we're smart we've got a problem. i hate the feeling when pple comes up t you and assumes youre a problematic kid just bcuz the rest of the student population conform to the 'geek' label so much. them being intellectual cowardy aint mean we are trying t be special. cuz thats who we are we have our own style. i dont see anything wrong with it.

I LOVE TO WIPE THAT SMIRK OFF YOUR FACE
i srsly do wonder why you dont tag at all.

if this is gna get me into trouble so be it but im sure theres nothing offending about this. im not assuming anything. im not insulting anyone, directly or indirectly. im just expressing my opinions on me myself, my character, how i perceive stuff, and im sure i do have that right. as an individual, as a student, as a singapore citizen. i dont feel ashamed of myself at all. never.

WHEE I CAN TAI TOU TING XIONG ZUO REN [:

anw im gna be truthful.
i DO miss nat (: but not that saying this wld change anything cuz whats been done is alrdy done. i knw when we're yr six we'll laugh at how childish this is and we'll regret but it doesnt matter anw. im just trying to be true to what i feel. yeah.! afterall i dont deny he has been one of the few important pple in my life.

and nathaniel ng li wen if youre reading this.
thankyou for all you have done. i knw you were true when we were best friends at the start of the year. there wasnt any lies, betrayal, of backstabbing. so yeah, thanks fer 16th jan, that meant alot to me, and it still does. thanks fer 22nd jan, you know why. thanks fer all the memories and fun we had together. its still there, i assure you.

mm. played a bit of squash with jieshen tday. he's terrible. worse than almeric. lousy tcher i hate you make me serve fer like 54689732 blardy times til it was 10 consecutive legal ones. hello i dont play racquet games you idiot doofus. i dont like yr girlfriend hokay.! -.-

ooh i like september alot hahah. *HINTHINT*
i miss talking t leon too.! and jt.! andandAND engaged.!

solongGOODBYE

14.8.05 ;

for all the dirty looks,
for photographs yr boyfriend took,
rmbr when you broke yr foot
frm jumping out the second floor

okay yay i finally finished my qinqing zuowen! -applause hahhaha and i wrote it like some qiu tian de tong hua story.! [: abt the brother and stuff like that. its a bit screwed though i tried t use second person narrative.

but it kinda brings back some memories. anw its weird that i wld choose t write abt an elder brother instead of an elder sister. aye, i nvr had brothers. so yeah guess its quite sad. but at least i used to have a kor, whos been like a real elder brother to me so mm. guess that's enough.! [:

aye lets see i have forensics (deep shit) and phy and chem left! oh no hahah my chem book's in school, shall hafta do tmr. i reaaaaaaaaaaally hope chong's not coming on monday too then i'll hug kris fer one whole minute.! (:

i love kris. everytime im not in school, she'll 'happen' to not be there too ahahah.

solongGOODBYE

;

tell me once again
whats below the surface bleeding
if youve lost your way
i will take you in

aye saturday. went t orchard with my parents fer a while then my aunts hse.! jie's been gng t woodlands library alot to prepare fer her o levels -frowns. wonder if shes really studying. oh yeah hahahah yay our ecstasy poster is nice.! (: its rushed work. oh ya i rmbred we had our very first cheerleading practice then! hahah a bit uhm. loser-ish and pathetic but still it was cute.! think tiff and eunice went fer it.!

jasper's GOT to go to SJI.! :\ if not he'll die in some ulu school like canberra sec or uhm. deyi sec.! he cant freaking speak chinese laaa. anw hahah yay i love my cousins cuz theyre quite cute. and i kicked jasper off his bed ytd and he was trying to push me off to the mattress but he didnt really use strength. hahah i hope he doesnt go normal techincal too. at least he knows that they only cut wood there.!

then went out fer dinner together. ate some super sweet mac-a-cone icecream thing i think. yeah cldnt finish it and i kept cringing frm the sweetness. its disgusting laaa.! came back and we watched whitechicks with the starhub demand tv thing.! (: hahah its quite cool you knw. its unfair those two wilson sisters are blardy rich -.-

kay then we reached home super late. oh yes hahah went t yumcha fer lunch on nats day. i wna eat their guilinggao again its so nice.! (:

solongGOODBYE

12.8.05 ;

scar tissue that i wish you saw
sarcastic mister knw it all
close yr eyes and i'll kiss you
'cos with the birds
i'll share this lonely view

yo.

uhm didnt go school again tday. ahhh im so loser im eating tuna bun right now in the room :\ its prolly expired or smthng like that. tastes yellowish :S

ANW. ive come to the realization that actl irwin christopher goh yi xiang is more than a person.! (: yay okay nvm hahhaha end of story. well, at least someday when hes bored or smthng and decides to do a google/yahoo search with his full name, he'll most likely end up here. so i'll say hello first.! hahahha you better rmbr me man.

shit chinese hmwk hahah. laoshi hates me.! im gna be guaaaaaaaaai and aspire to finish all my overdued hmwk yeah.! [: hurhur my compre and zuowen.

tiff jo and kris didnt go school tday too.! major ponning session.! [: no la hahaha we're all sick :\ i hope baby isnt sick though. we'll buy him more jiajialiangteh then.

and i rmbred that tday's supposed t be the philosophy forum thing at RI that me and krisseh signed up fer t avoid bball trng.! whoops hahah i wonder if engaged went.

oh yesyesyes. and i desperately need t start running again once i recover. ah miss tan rocks i <3 her! (: i dreamt of running last night and it was so cool to just keep on running. i wasnt running very fast or anything like that, but it felt great to be able to continue running fer quite a while.! [:

kay why do i sound so weird tday hahaha. slept too much. im always talking in fragments.! (: ohhh and the hits counter thing hahahha. hurry reach 10 000 please then i can go copy kenny and celebrate.! [:

solongGOODBYE

11.8.05 ;

she said she needed a break
a little time to think
but then she went t cleveland
with some guy named leelan
that she met at the bank

yo ahahah ny track's in zaobao tday.! [: sports section.! yay thankyou yingzhen fer telling me. and ms tan's there too.! hahahah saw her chinese name. wheeeeeeeeeeee my coach rocks hokay [:

AND CHENGSUYIJOY <3!
hahah dont think that i didnt see that kay. second fer 800m when she was like. the 4th qualifier.! :D just like melanie last yr fer her 100m finals hahahah.! 7th qualifier but the champion.! mmm i like the part where ms tan said that we didnt have the facilities and vigorous trngs that sports school had but we train fer the passion and our love fer running in nytrack.! and there was this bit that was especially touching and im sure all those in our batch wld understand.!

two years ago we're still in sec one trying out fer the nationals in c div. and that time we're like 8th, with only 20points. which is pretty pathetic actl la. hahha but HEY! look after two years of trng, its the same batch of pple, with our sec4 snrs in the same division, competing against the same pple, and we are freaking third.! (: hahahah maybe third to you guys isnt really much, but the point was that nanyang's trng is uhm. veryveryvery slack compared to cedar's and st nicks. and maybe cuz the school didnt really place much emphasis on track so yeah.! its cool to achieve the third position alrdy.! after st nicks and cedar.! [:

kay anw tday was sick didnt go school. tiff kris and baby too.! :\ hope we all get well soon. hahah just went t the doc. he gave me nice blackcurrant lozenges cuz i didnt want the green minty one.! wont be gng tmr too cuz still sick. blehhh super lethargic too. slept the whole day away (besides watching meteor garden again heehee)

yay thankfully it isnt erased. phew [:

solongGOODBYE

10.8.05 ;

MY HEAD HURTS :[

-SCREAAAAAAAAAAMS

solongGOODBYE

;

time is wasted and gone
life is passing on again
the white lights leading you on
is this the end

eeyer :\ i got biantoutong and stupid still got high fever -frowns jo's sick too. eunice and tiff too.! yeah hope all of us recover fast enough. wna pon tmr but cannot. hahhaha all the pple rushing t finish their hmwk and im like over here slacking so much. laoshi's gna hate me too.! my zuowen and compre.!

still sneezing. its super cold. the weatherman hates me.!

hohoho slept the whole day away. but last night was really terrible cuz i cldnt sleep with the aircon but once i turned off the aircon it turned stuffy again and blehhh felt so sticky and disgusting. i want my baby's jiajialiangteh! (: hahahah baby's super cute.

watched meteor garden I again today. hahahah dao ming si and hua ze lei rocks.! dao ming si is so poor thing ]: and hua ze lei is so. knight in shining armour. mm yeah and i think i kinda like contaminated my whole living room since i was practically lying all over the place while watching the show tday.! whoops.

oh yeah gna blog abt games day. hahahah we had pracs on sat and sun but basically everyone was quite sick so we cldnt really do much.! esp on sunday me eunice and tiff suddenly had high fever and tiff's one was uber serious.! cut out the ties, burned them and uh, tied them.! hahah slept alot and slacked alot too. ran with spikes on sat and cut timing by 5 secs! whoaaa. and sun we extended trng til 8 so everyone was super shagged.! uhm oh and ezra came on sunday to help us a bit too hahhaa. theo and benjamin and jiajun and yuting came to help make house flag.

kay then D-DAY! (x hahahah woke up super early mom tied my hair fer me. everyone reached at 6plus and we were damn screwed cuz we didnt even have one full run.! hahah plus our national day dance was like shit too.! was alrdy perspiring like crazy after singing national anthem so yeah.! all of the cheerleaders were also super tired frm running about.

hahha you know what. i was very surprised that we actl made it through without any of us fainting halfway through the race.! and yay we bagged second third and fourth fer 400m b girls! hahaha but that was cuz cheryl didnt run though. heard shes injured or smthng like that. which is quite a waste though. we didnt wna run that much at first cuz we didnt wna injure ourselves.!

yay our positions. what i can rmbr.

100M C GIRLS yuting -second!
100M B GIRLSaiwei <3 -third!
100M B BOYS caiyue -second!

400M C BOYS shengsen -second!
400M B GIRLS gnia [me!] -second!
yingzhen -third!
margaret -fourth!
400M B BOYS caiyue -first!

4BY100M C GIRLS yuting beryl sharlene becca -second!
4BY100M C BOYS dominic jackie ganshun hubert -second!
4BY100M B GIRLS jingxuan mira kris jo -third!
4BY100M B BOYS benjamin benedict theo BABY <3!-third!

16BY200M uh. last but hahaha nvm its okay (:

CHEERLEADING
eugenia ong sze ying
tiffany chin yun xian (though absent!)
fung aiwei
joanne tan jun hwee
eunice tan xiang xuan
mirabella ann foo
carissa mei ling l loh
bryan lee zi en
altron lee fu guang (BABY!)
-FIRST

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee (x hahhaha and all those miscellaneous points that add up that made us first overall.! mmm strategy worked huh. though it failed terribly fer cross country ahahha. oh well. quite tyco this time round but yay next yr we'll all break our pbs hokay.! we lifted aiwei.! hahaha quite cool cuz yeah we thought we'll still be stuck at like the 1.5 lvl. and i forgot the steps halfway before the slapping part heehee! whoops.

yay all the other hses were pretty nice about it and stuff. see we nvr offend anyone on monday. (well at least we didnt bother to) fibo cheer rocks on man.

went out fer our ritual stuff.! hahahah taxi competition to ps again.! but dont knw who won. mmm me eunice aiwei and mira went into cafe cartel frm the outside and totally maluated ourselves ahahhaa.! then decided to go pastamania instead again.! took lotsa pictures of baby.! (: hes super cute. all the poses the same one.

went arnd orchard hahaha. wanted t go cine at first but we alighted wrongly. oh yesyesyes girlfriend is a super naughty thief hahah she stole my wallet and jo's phone hokay.! then we went taka. hahahha saw a 800 dollars shoe frm escada. and more tree dresses.! tried on stuff at dkny with the rest.! heehee had lotsa fun.

then we went into armani exhange.! hahahah baby has a super good figure we made him try on lotsa stuff and he looked so photogenice can be model alrdy.! (: baby's super obedient too hahhaha. the pple there are damn nice cuz they didnt chase us out. and the last jacket we made baby try on was like. hahahha totally hilarious la.

thought of gng into hugo boss, louis vuitton and burberry but we didnt dare to go in hahah.! then baby kept wanting to go buy jiajialiangteh fer all of us.! so wanted to go lucky plaza, but ended up at wisma.! yingzhen was so funny she was scared that we'ld stir up trouble she went t look fer us at louis vuitton. hahaha whoops. aiya someday when we all grow up and become real taitais we'll just stroll in and have lotsa fun trying on and buying clothes together.! (:

mm girlfriend and baby bought lozenges fer all of us.! hahahah so sweet. yeah then everyone was quite tired so we went home. took train t eunos with baby.! omg he makes me laugh la. hahhaha there was a part where he was talking abt muscles reaching equilibrum and i started laughing and he turned red and when he looked at me he laughed like crazy and i cldnt stop laughing too.! :DDD whee baby rocks you. and he's gna do PT.!!! (: love him to bits.

oh no shld i go to school tmr. my ear hurts like crazy. ltr i go halfway then much come back alrdy. but i dont wna miss school either. sigh :
anw everyone's being super nice abt fibo winning so yay.! (: cheerleaders, we've succeeded. hahahah no more misunderstandings. looking forward to more jnrs yeah!

solongGOODBYE

8.8.05 ;

cuz the last thing that i need
is somebody like you
t push me arnd
and tell me what t do

okay we're last.

NO IM KIDDING FIBO'S FREAKING FIRST
hohoho alliteration (: wheeeee this rocks man.

kay hahahha unity wasnt that strong tday though. maybe cuz cheerldrs were all quite sick so our voices were super soft and uhm. low.

anw gtg sleep. I DONT HAVE A VOICE ><
gna blog tmr abt sat-mon! (:

solongGOODBYE

4.8.05 ;

left the only worries i had in my hands
away frm the light in my eyes

lalalaaaa what i like abt you.! (: uhm got lotsa hmwk but yeah its all due tmr.! :\ plus theres gna be intensive cheer prac on saturday and sunday which means we're gna be ultra tired. but we cant NOT have those trngs anw.! i cant run 400 i dont wna run how.! aching all over tday alrdy la.!

listening to random weird songs. so cute so stupid so funkaaaaye. aye uh theres chi compre and zuowen due tmr.! and i better pass my forensic thing too and phy assignment and chem prac.! shit can i skip school. my sister skipped school tday hokay.!

and theres bball trng tmr somemore. howhowhow.! :\ hes like super fierce kay. i wna join squash cca hahhaha. and asra sucks hahahha cuz of uhm yeah.! (:

hoyhoyhoyhoyyyyyyy. we ran 4by1 in 41secs kay.! mira aiwei jo and me.! hahahha we're damn pro la yes thankyou. you knw you'll nvr be able to make it. somemore tiff's so much faster than me so yay.!

-DREAM OF CALIFORNICATION [:

solongGOODBYE

3.8.05 ;

illusions are taking part of the confusion in me
tmr there will be no heroes left to follow

mm so cute. weird tunes are nice maaaan. like falling fer you by taking back sunday.! (: abit out of tune but yeah its still nice [:[: cheerleading was like. hahahha okay damn tiring.! :\ played squash with eunice tday! its so fun ahhh leslie and jiajiun and yunying were playing too.! then did a lil bit of cheerleading. got most of it figured out alrdy.! oh no hahah we're gna go fer last minute stuffs again hohoho. went t macs with tiff fer dinner.! hahahah i saw the ghim moh guy again.! the louis one i think. he looks like a rabbit :\ cuz of his teeth.!

anw yeah hahhaha we were just talking randomly and being super mean to *hackcougheugenehackcough* hey! its not my fault kay if thats the kinda impression he gives. aye uhm then went t the ulu pandan cc place. man theyre damn cheap la the charges fer the dance studios are super ex.! like, almost twice than that of gombak stadium's.?

reached home so late im freaking tired. gna die. hokay lets see what ive got left

chem prac (which i didnt go fer?)
physics -glares at krisseh
forensic! (omg hahahah last week's one havent finished yet la am so screwed)
chinese yangchunmian
chinese compre
hcinese zuowen! (friday[:)

anw. tday's engaged and dominic's competition. hahaha hoped they did well.! think im gna die fer sports day. pls dont let me get last okay! (:

solongGOODBYE

2.8.05 ;

shes a mystery shes too much fer me
but i keep coming back fer more
shes just the girl im looking fer.!

okay random song playing in itunes. hoyhoy tday was pretty hyper. yeah.! we finished quite a bit of the dance alrdy so uhm half of the song left to go (: gotta practise. i cant do some of the steps heehee too fast.!

hurhur trying t copy wont help darling.! (: super hyper omg engaged hahaha i think tmr's the paper. jiayou kay even though you prolly wont be seeing this till uh. sunday.! [: yay go get me a medal hahah love ya.!

WHEEE CHINESE AH WHO CARES. dont wna see laoshi tmr. betcha she hates me and krisseh alot hokay.! :\ hohoho shes gna kill me. my yangchunmian is not done man. (:

physics physics hahahha okay im gna do it tmr la. see if kris finished hers [:

beverly hills! thats where i want to be!
okay its super old but its stupidly cute. however i think pussycat dolls srsly sucks like hell. yeah retard song like dontcha.!

these empty feelings question me
of who i think ive become
my mind is ticking life away
asking if you are the one

solongGOODBYE

1.8.05 ;

where i can run as fast as i can
to the middle of nowhere
to the middle of my frustrated fears
AND I SWEAR YOURE JUST LIKE A PILL
INSTEAD OF MAKING ME BETTER
YOU KEEP MAKING ME ILL
YOU KEEP MAKING ME ILL.!

okay im still stuck onto pink. its damn addictive. cant blame me, ive at least heard it like. 30+ times tday :
anw yay go read jojo's entry cuz its nice.! okay hahahah maybe thats cuz it finally has smthng nice t say abt me :D uh dont knw its quite touching in the sense that, i get the 'lost' feeling. about moving on and stuff like that. fer some reason it reminds me of viva forever and i liked viva forever alotalot when i was young. i cried while watching one of the music videos when it showed some girl being separated frm her friends and its like she cant help it anw she doesnt wna forget abt them but after a while she does. and she knws that theres smthng she doesnt wna forget abt but she cant rmbr what it is. so its those kind of feelings. its sad alright but at least you find happiness somehow.

i dont knw. like THE GOODBYE KISS.!
its nice to rmbr that you knw. its sweet to rmbr. but it gets depressing after a while yeah.

hoyhoy. i'm scared of losing engaged. it'll be pretty scary and i wont knw what to do without him sometimes. so yeah, its not fer the sake of saying those three words to confirm our relationship but i really mean it kay when i say it (: so, yeah love ya engaged.!

but i still refuse to believe the part abt nat cuz. ive got no explanation. i knw i ought to but i cant help it but i wont wna do anything abt it anw. so uh yeah.

and lysh (: i hope she still loves me as much as i love her.!

claire too. hope she nvr forgets me cuz i wont forget her.!

and the person whos been riding the roller coaster with me all this while (well, quoted anw), can we go try bigger ones. i prefer thrills at times you knw. but i think seatbelts are pretty impt too. dont wna fly away cuz HAHAHA I GREW LIGHTER.

solongGOODBYE

;

and i swear youre just like a pill
instead of making me better
you keep making me ill
keep making me ill

okay hahah am sick tday so didnt go school. anw pink is cool. yeah she dances super well too [: mm. smses frm taiwan costs 50cents++ thats damn ex.

went out shopping ytd.! hahah bought three pants. yay they are quite nice (: jie bought three too.! she got the red one that i wanted but mommy asked me t let her have it instead. oh well. we got new pencilcases too. anw the wallets at flash and splash now suck, theyre all damn ugly. ahhh i wna eat black sesame paste frm chinatown now hahahha its super nice and sweet.

hokay gna do chinese. im very screwed. the dance too.! a bit scared but nvm i think can pull it off. dont rush me please [:

solongGOODBYE