why are you so in love with bittersweet romance?

31.10.05 ;

;all hail the heartbreaker

this is how a heart breaks - like an egg! hahahahahaha :D okay sorry it was so funny.

anw, i ate that nice yoghurt for breakfast again! harhar i feel so healthy. uh, chinese o's were ~~super~~ easy and if i dont get A1 i think im gna jump down from ritz carlton hotel. which reminds me of apple strudels. sigh i wna eat now.

uh, ate duck rice haha afterwards. stole fries from jieshen! (: went woodlands and met my sister and ramona. we -tried- to do overdue hmwk la! and oh ya the veggie pie from the cafe is not bad (x my sister bought the wedges when we left :\ she said its damn nice.

haha im gna start studying for bio tmr ~~night~~! whee, i cannot do early studying la. it kills me :\ ohohoh and coordinate haha omg i love maths la can settle a module in 5 minutes one! im gna be so free after monday's 10.15am! pooooool (x

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
hahah ramona was trying to translate the 'trick-or-treat' to chinese so cute! (x

anw. kiss and makeup's really nice. i love it haha. maybe cos i listened to it too much ytd night!

solongGOODBYE

30.10.05 ;

the end result
of so many meetings
at late night diners
with no one eating
we sit in corners
and sip burnt coffee
count the tiles up
on the ceiling
skip this pretense
and cut straight to dying
dont beg me to
keep your eyes from crying

you said so much
without ever parting your lips

its past 3 am
and im still far from sleep
and this is a habit
that i cant break
youre my only company
im skipping stones

and the street lights flicker like this match in my hand
the street lights flicker like this match in my hand
and the street lights flicker like this match in my hand

begging to strike
begging to strike

and i keep repeating but this payphone tele stopped receiving
flat out of change now
im sure you wont
accept the charges
its all the same cause by the morning i'll be halfway to
colorado or some place like that

you said so much
without ever parting your lips

its past 3 am
and im still far from sleep
and this is a habit
that i cant break
youre my only company
imm skipping stones
down a dull suburban street

and she keeps on asking,
do you think
it hurts much to die?
its hurting so much more
to stay alive now
she is going to find out
how much it hurts to die

she laces her perfume
up with death
i feel it in my lungs
so i pull in
the deepest breath
and drop my head

chloroform perfume - from autumn to ashes

solongGOODBYE

;

;short stories with tragic endings

in case you havent realised, me and eunice asked mrs phang the other day about how our classes were gna be like for the next three years and apparently all core modules will be held in mentor groups (like wtf) and they didnt look as if they'll change their minds. i mean, anything we say hardly gets through anw we're used to it. i seriously doubt it as a form of exchange of ideas or suggestions, it seemed like a 'now-throw-your-ideas-at-us-and-we'll-tell-you-why-they-dont-work' session.

does this offend the blogging rule? -frowns. im practicing for chinese olevels tmr yeah? the blog thing that may come out for argumentative alright! (:

well, frankly speaking, im not very happy with the arrangement but then again na shi yi ge xiao ren wu de xin sheng! get it? haha it doesnt really matter if im unhappy/pissed/angry at such a decision does it. it wont change anything. uh okay wait- i take that back. maybe they'll send me to the school counsellor. and its some sort of punishment i suppose cos i wldnt wna tell someone about stuff that will eventually end up in my parents' ears? and i cant not tell if not they'll prolly label me as a problematic kid :\ which wldnt be good for scholarships.

i seriously think the school shld place more emphasis on the psychological part of uh our growth, you know? and start paying attention to other details besides academic for once. i would say gep does a pretty good job for everything minus the propagandistic elitist idea theyve been trying to build in us. gep teachers are definitely better when it comes to handling students. if you think gep students in our school are abnormal, you havent seen the rest yet. maybe we're different when it comes to perceptions about things. remember when we had those cme lessons on 'what makes me gifted?' and 'how different am i?' kind of questions. haha its so funny. but anw its a fact that we're more mature. look at pple like po linn, claire, evelyn. this is what you call smart. looks, talent, intelligence, eq, sports, theyve got it all.

OH YES MY DARLING CLAIRE GOT COUNCIL PRESIDENT IM SO PROUD OF HER (:
HAHA SHES THE BEST I TELL YOU.

well, i miss mr teo alot you know? haha gep tchers actl went through counselling sessions on how to handle us students :\ i miss mr adrian chan too. haha hes a pretty cool el/lit form tcher la! and his witty comments. maybe we didnt like him that much last yr, but after you compare him to what we have now, yeah.. haha and yup, mr chan is super smart la. and confident. thats why he had our respect.

okay chinese o levels tmr
wah havent studied yet.!
i feel so ~~not~~accomplished today!
got so many new songs haha yay.

solongGOODBYE

;

;the after dinner payback

yay i ate the berrynice yoghurt again this morning for breakfast at lot1! its nice yeah? hahah thankyou pehpeh for buying it for me the first time :D

omg im like, damn happy cos we're drawing closer to now drop's performance! (x super proud of the cheer team. our dance is like. so nice la! and i heard that jo's church's gna use you got served dance! and two classes doing it somemore!
AND THEYRE LIKE, USING NOW DROP? thats super pathetic la haha. we decided on it like way before. even before the dance cca's suntec comp day where the winning dance grp used now drop la! omg we have good taste (x

red, white and black, its perfect.

oh yes haha i <3 my parents. i bet yours arent like that. like ive said, they really dont know what exams are. and my sister's having her o levels. like uh, shes in the midst of it alrdy? haha tmr's her hcl paper! anw yeah, so we played pool at kpool at lot one. hahah family outing after macs (x mm, the table seems so small after playing snooker yeah? but i seem to have deproved. but nvm! ninth november hahah i shall play at paradigm! :D

solongGOODBYE

29.10.05 ;

;love's the funeral of hearts

i like HIM and snow patrol, theyre really good haha (: changed blogskin. dontknow -shrugs i was just being bored :
havent you realised my posts are becoming so nonsensical. i dont really see any reason in posting anymore. partly cos ive been using the other one so much. i kinda tend to want to blog there more though, about what ive been doing that day (thats truly significant) and how i really felt about stuff. maybe someday i'll just link it la. dont know, dont search for it kay. not that i think you can find it la. and i like that template quite a bit too! (: ohwell, maybe you can just figure out what songs i was listening to that day from this blog!

anw, for this one, i hope tiff wont spend such a long time tryna figure out how to navigate haha! :D

finished the dance steps for nowdrop! (: terribly happy and hyper. and friday exam was pretty easy. i thought laoshi alrdy made it easier cos w/o memorizing the words i dont even hafta study at all. and i wrote a super long 1000+ word essay. like a xiao shuo! hope she gives me high marks. i wrote it quite fluently. yay me and eunice write well under pressure haha.! kris writes well... uh anytime.

oh yes! after exam we were like super hyper (cos of now drop(x!) and at first we were thinking of cabbing to buona vista mrt but in the end we walked! hahah there were this bunch of sec ones la. and they looked so... uh spastic. and we're damn high la!

oh yeah, taxi-ed to school on friday too :\ woke up too late. and i hate that stupid bukit panjang govt high school guard. was dialling fer taxi and he freaking asked me move away and then i dropped my book into the mud. but its, uh physics book la.! taxied to school with korkor! (: wasnt late haha!

today was pretty much okay la. went school, talked to margaret for an hr plus :D while waiting for aiwei! then went causeway with aiwei ezra and jo met us ltr! my sister made me feel cheated okay -glares

heehee ezra qing wo chi shu tiao! (:

solongGOODBYE

26.10.05 ;

;well a son's gonna rise in a mile

new bands (: cute ones! haha.

wheee two more days. cant wait. and now drop's performance. im sorry but we're so gna totally rule. and the party! (:

it's the violent pornogrpahy!
choking chicks and SODOMY!
the kinda shit you get on your TV!

solongGOODBYE

25.10.05 ;

;this eventual stop this break in the mould

red is the new black - funeral for a friend :D

okay sorry i have weird taste. but i think the title's really nice. though i dont exactly go hysterical at the parts where they try and hiss and vomit at the same time. but its music la, i mean, in their sense so nvm.

noisynoisy songs! haha like... dark new day's.
WHEEE MISFIT(:

anw, i finished 70% of lab. thankyou nat for being the idiot who helped me with it haha.! (x gna do chem tmr morning! (: byebye.

solongGOODBYE

23.10.05 ;

;this is the grace that only we can bestow
this is the price you pay for loss of control

yay i ate prata for breakfast this morning (: but msia's one is so much better!funeral for a friend is, not bad laaa (x i want black sesame but my mom says overdose.

im gna start doing my overdue hmwk now! (: im gna be guai, i think. anw, i think my parents obviously dont understand the term 'exam period' 'cos ytd we were all deciding whether we should go play snooker, and where. then my dad found out kpool has a minimum age of 16 cos they were raided last sunday, so in the end we couldnt play. oh, i didnt mention paradigm 'cos well, yeah. anw it'll be like super full too anw.

see thats why i love my parents.

OKAY I BELIEVE YOU
BUT MY TOMMY GUN DONT

solongGOODBYE

;

wake up
grab a brush and put a little makeup
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
why'ld you leave the keys upon the table
here you go create another fable

you wanted to
grab a brush and put a little makeup
you wanted to
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
you wanted to,
why'ld you leave the keys upon the table
you wanted to

i dont think you trust
in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die

wake up
grab a brush and put a little makeup
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
why'ld you leave the keys upon the table
here you go create another fable

you wanted to
grab a brush and put a little makeup
you wanted to
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
you wanted to,
why'ld you leave the keys upon the table
you wanted to

i dont think you trust
in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die
in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die

Father Father Father Father
Father into your hands i commend my spirit
Father into your hands
why have you forsaken me
in your eyes forsaken me
in your thoughts forsaken me
in your heart forsaken me

oh trust in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die
in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die

chop suey - system of a down.

solongGOODBYE

22.10.05 ;

;i never said i'ld lie and wait forever
if i died we'ld be together
i cant always just forget her
but she could try

NEVER COMING HOME NEVER COMING HOME.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PEHPEH'S SISTER (x sorry that i cldnt go with you to yr hse to uhm, play with your sister alright! haha but its so cute 'cos you dote on her so much. thats really nice (:

anw in the afternoon mom got me to bugis with her to shop first then go grandma's hse. bought three tees. quite nice la! (: i want that red adidas jacket.! and boyjeans for nowdrop performance. i think my parents coming for art fests. oh no theyre gna laugh at me. and my sister too, maybe. cos her freezing is nice.

haha aunt josephine bought this funny chair for grandma its weird. i wna play snooker! hurhur i planned out my 'after-exams' schedule. and prata's included! wheeeee cant wait la haha. chem test was okay, but i went to simplify the whole thing by relating r^3 to A^3. i hope my answer's correct cos i was careless for units for qns2.

i think physics and chem tests this week were relatively easy considering that i only studied for both uh, 1-2 hr before it with kris.! and theyre quite do-able. stupid phy la, i think if i werent careless for the calculations i might have gotten full marks. write and copy wrongly! but im not worried cos now i dont hafta study for phy and chem for this term cos i uh, studied for it alrdy before the test haha! so happy. but im gna fail exam. still, i cant bring myself to go study (:

i dont understand it. if pple can do their hmwk sets then why cant they do the test. 'cos frankly speaking, the hmwk sets are more tedious and challenging what. though i try not to take more than a hr to complete them. or maybe others just took super long to finish la.

im talking incoherently.
screw you.
that idiot who went to search for 'gnia mira kris jo' or smthng like that.

//
your eyes tell the story of the day you wished you could
recall the moments that once have
retrack the footsteps that brought us to this favor
i wouldnt ask this of you

GOOD EYE, SNIPER
HERE I'LL SHOOT YOU RUN
//

solongGOODBYE

20.10.05 ;

;jealousy, turning saints into the sea
swimming through sick lullabies
choking on your alibis
but its just the price i pay
destiny is calling me
open up my eager eyes
'cos im mr brightside

<3.
anw, yay whee can tick off something alrdy! though i havent done chem :\ shall do tmr! ah, engaged finished today.

AND YES I WASNT SCREWED HAHAHHA SO HAPPY.
more of relieved i suppose! (x

solongGOODBYE

18.10.05 ;

;and you cling to every thread that clings to me

very polite.
very very polite.
super civil (how many times did i hear 'sorry')
cannot la tmr surely kenna scolded by another person la how.

anw thats nice. longest one so far.
ah engaged = MIA

but i still <3 engaged hahah!

tmr theres physics test.
i'll study tmr! byebye, gna sleep now. and harhar, save sms! :D

solongGOODBYE

17.10.05 ;

;you remind me of a song i used to love

screw cheer 'cos im done with it.
and its not 'cos i dont like it anymore.
im sick and tired of all this crap.

youre just stupid and you know it.
dont tag, dont ruin.

you know what. i wont bother changing the url of my other blog 'cos thats for eunice and engaged to read and i love them but not you. all you other fucktards so interested in my life can jolly well continue searching in blogger for my blog like you always do.

and hopefully when you find the other one you'ld rmbr to tag so at least i know you arent that loser after all.

or maybe if youre just reading this thinking that im loser cos you think youre damn great, i dont really care.

i love my songs.

//

its the nightlife that gets them on
so desperately they wait for the excuse of love
we live like vampires and we, we, we love like killers
we all die like infants
and we trust like mirrors

//

she said
ive gotta be honest youre wasting your time
if youre fishing around here
and i said
you must be mistaken im not fooling
this feeling is real
she said
youve gotta be crazy what do you take me for
some kind of easy mark
youve got wits youve got looks youve got passion
but i swear that youve got me all wrong

//

hope dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption
winding in winding out
shine of which has caught my eye
and roped me in so mesmerising
so hypnotising i am captivated

i am vindicated i am selfish i am wrong
i am right i swear im right
swear i knew it all along
and i am flawed
but im cleaning up so well
i am seeing in me now the things
you swore you saw yourself

//

i feel her slipping through my fingers
now shes gone
im sleeping with the light on
and sharks swim through my veins now
that shes gone
im sleeping with the light on

//

so get back back back to where we lasted
just like i imagine
i could never feel this way
so get back back back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same

//

rest in peace girl
your death is such a shame
the paper said a bullet got in your way
but i smell foul play, possible poisoning
i had to bring you in for questioning
i went to your grave dug up your body
brought it to my house, where you lay

//

she clings to me like cellaphane
fake plastic submarine
slowly driving me insane but now thats over
so what if the sex is great
just a temporary escape
another thing i grew to hate
but now thats over

//

pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything
pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about
and thats what you get for falling again
you can never get him out of your head
and thats what you get for falling again
you can never get him out of your head

//

i started thinkin you know i started drinkin
i dont really rmbr too much of that day
something struck me funny when we ran outta money
where do you go now when youre only fifteen

//

if you want me hold me back
frail, the skin is dry and pale
the pain will never fail
and so we go back to the remedy
clip the wings that get you high
just leave them where they lie
and tell yourself you'll be the death of me

//

he calls the mansion not a house but a tomb
hes always choking from the stench in the fume
the wedding party all collapsed in the room
so send my resignation to the bride and the groom

lets go down
this elevator only goes up to ten
hes not arnd hes always looking in men
down by the pool he doesnt have many friends
as they are face down and bloated snap a shot with the lens

//

ive given up im giving up slowly
im blending in so you wont even knw me
apart from this whole world that shares my fate
this one last call that you mentioned
is my one last shot at redemption
because i knw to live you must give your life away

//

dearly beloved are you listening
i cant rmbr a word that you were saying
are we demented or am i disturbed
the space thats inbetween insane and insecure

oh therapy can you please fill the void
am i retarded or am i just overjoyed
nobodys perfect and i stand accused
for lack of a better word and thats my best excuse

//

time is wasted and all gone
life is passing on again
the white lights seem to lead you on
is this THE END

ohwell.
<3 as lovers go, slow suicide, right now, white lights, im not okay, be my escape, remedy, buried a lie, pretty girl, memory, your song, sleeping with the light on and more.

byebye im gna sleep. i drank too much shandy and yes i love seether and sugarcult too. harhar hello you suck. youre gone.

solongGOODBYE

16.10.05 ;

throw your dollar bills
and leave your thrills all here with me
and speak but dont pretend
i wont defend you anymore you see

oh homework oh homework.
uh i mean chinese, who cares about you!

CHINESE TEST TMR
and i didnt knw it til eunice like reminded me a few minutes ago. i was like 'oh no im dead for chinese' and i meant all those overdue hmwk that laoshi read out on friday then she sent some weird msg telling me that i dont hafta study alot for it. harhar then i rmbred that eunice didnt go school on friday too!

do you knw kris's msg came in like two long pages (i was using uber small font) of all the chinese thing that were overdue? ehehe. whatever.

are searches that fun? i think theyre quite time consuming.

anw friday, haha poor pehpeh! i still want my black sesame paste you idiot. better buy it back for me someday alright.

went to msia for saturday and sunday. haha i played snooker! and well, i suddenly found out that i had 4-5 guy cousins arnd my age. and theres one who plays bball and is super tall and is my age! and uh, all of them play snooker well :\ yay i'll go back during dec to play moreeeee (while drinking shandy heehee) ytd was quite funny, 'cos like after the dinner thing i told daddy i wanted to go play again then after that my aunts told me that my cousins are all gna play with me so it ended up like some weird outing for the whole family! ahaha they dont have age restrictions i guess.

been listening to some songs for the whole trip and i aaah <3 them
they dont sound very nice but the more i listen to them theyre like waaaaaaay cool :D

and. haha i like being daddy's little girl in malaysia.
and i didnt really talk to my cousins anw.
but i'll go talk to them in dec and get them to play snooker with me.! (:

well i saw you with your hands above your head spinning around trying not to look down but you did and you fell hard on the ground. then you stumbled around for a good ten minutes and i said i'ld never see anyone look so dumb before and you laughed and said i still dont know how to turn you on

-youre the only one, maria mena

have fun with bio and chem prac. im gna ask laoshi for extension til thurs i think. i feel bad :\

solongGOODBYE

14.10.05 ;

youve got wits youve got looks youve got passion,
but i swear that youve got me all wrong

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LEON ON THE 12TH OCT!

AHAHA ive got a new blog template.! (: yay. anw, the background's pretty right? i love the person on the left (guess why) and well, if you havent got it yet, youre actl supposed to click on the 'but youre just a line in a song'. aaah now ive made the div frame so long i think my paragraphs are gna look real ugly unless i make them longer. so yeah, thats what im trying to do (x

wednesday;
OMG AAAAH ZHENG HE.
i <3 zhenghe.

okay no im lying. we found out that laoshi's nice! (: haha and she tries to bribe us to stay back for the library tour with ricola sweets! i think shes kinga cute you know. anw, i just like zhenghe 'cos it gave us the chance to explore bugis and uhm, eat sushi!

heehee me jo eunice kris dragged alex to take neos with us! and yup i think they turned out quite nice and colorful! and it was super funny cos the machine had two cameras and while taking we're like 'ohh its up now! nonono wait its down there! oh shit now change to the top one!' ehehe, i bet we sounded spastic. oh well (x planned to go to cafe cartel with kris at first but they all said too far :\ anw hahah shifu is damn cute kay, i think we were all tryna decide where to go for dinner and then SOMEHOW shifu said something like 'okay i treat you guys to sushi' and yeah thats how he died.! (: and we were like running arnd bugis junction looking like idiots searching for sakae sushi cos it was 5 and for buffet we hafta stop ordering at 5.30!

anw we finally found it and that guy was like totally horrible la cos he refused to let eunice have the student buffet thing JUST COS she lost her ezlink card. like hello? shes in the freaking school uniform. haha oh wel in the end he let la. but its like the first time i ate at sakae and they check for the student ezlink card. anw OMG ahhaha its just like all the other sushi dates. and we ordered like 7+ plates of takoyaki which is like, 21 of it laaa! hahaha the fried hotates! and i ate so much salmon again ehehe. 4-5 plates i think! salmon overdose now :
and ahaha SHIFU LEARNS DAMN FAST. once again we were tryna squish all the rice inbetween the plates and stuff like that thats why our plates were unexceptionally high (: and hiding the green soba amongst the green vegs and wasabi and chawanmushi cups and hiding them behind the plates! that was totally despo la ahaha. that fdgsjh waiter kept asking if he could clear the plates for us (i bet he knew) but we came up with some stupid excuse about wanting to take a picture of it in the end. ahaha anw im proud of myself cos i finished the watermelons! kris too (x and oh yeah, and the icecream cake ahahah. i digged out the coffee icecream beneath and just left the layer of cake on top! (: it looks so nice outside heehee.

so yup in the end we felt kinda bad so ended up we paid ten bucks each then the rest shifu treat us! (: YAY I LOVE SHIFU THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

uh. went home and ate spaghetti 'cos my mom thought i'll be gng home to eat )x and me being the nice girl, ate it all up.

thursday;
generally nice day. oh ya, shifu helped me carry my bag all the way to the mrt! haha yay i love shifu. was walking with tan li and lei lei too. and leilei took out his umbrella and OMG HAHA tanli and shifu were laughing at him being so gay. but leilei so pro hes like, past caring what they were talking about him. anw yeah, and kimura takuya is hot i dont care.!

friday;
i DID not skip school to play pool alright. im a nice girl :\ anw went to do homework with tiff and eunice at the national library.
AND THEY LAUGHED AT ME
JUST 'COS I DONT HAVE 20C COINS!
haha then yoshinoya lunch and tiffeh went to pick up almeric and xavier from obs.

YES THAT FUGLY LIBRARIAN GUY. just cos hes ugly and stupid and uncool, unlike us. well, just cos he aint us. anw hahaha he was like 'youre making a lot of noise and besides, you arent really using our books -squeezes eyes like >< and stares' when we had this whole pile of physics books infront of us. anw yeah before that me and euncie walked past him once and he asked us to kepp quiet cos i was laughing. oh, and we were like, looking at him as if hes stupid and i said something like 'uh, we're gng' and he looked blur so tiff repeated it to him again 'we're gng' and finally after a while, he was like 'okay' and left.

haha and then before leaving, tiff took the whole bunch of physics books and dumped them infront of his desk and whispered 'we're done with your books now. and we're going' and we just walked away laughing like crazy. and well, he just looks stupid.

ANW HAHA STUPID UGLY LIBRARIAN.
mm, took neos after that (: was quite fun only that uh, we cldnt read jap :
yay msia tmr. and kris just sent me this msg telling me abt all of my chi overdue work. well done gnia :\ caiyueeeeeeeee. what is he doing at my blog haha! and whos conkky. hm.

solongGOODBYE

10.10.05 ;

>>if you would be my punk rock princess
i'll be your garage band king

dedicated to YOU.

im actually quite happy today. despite the fact that good friend number 1 has embarked on a obs trip and friend number 2 has yet to reply and friend number 3 didnt receive the msg in time, well im still happy.

i think i gotta thank aki and halu (: and uh the uh black sesame mommy bought for me! haha i love heizhima <3 and mommy too!

i think i dont now. im not ready haha. 'cos of what halu said i guess. i suddenly realised it and like after eight mths, i felt so damn happy cos i got a clearer idea of everything. to simply put it, i just wasnt ready. i wasnt ready to give anything at all, and i wasnt sure if the other party was willing to do so too. i guess thats why i always had doubts, i'ld always hesitate. its prolly one of the very few things in my life that i lack confidence in.

but then again, its good to be like this. its good to be innocent. i like being innocent (: though i am not. haha. today was a pretty nice day i felt somewhat accomplished. daddys rushing me off to sleep now! alright then hahah. im gna go buy a nice ankle guard tmr! if i bother to go laaa...!

solongGOODBYE

9.10.05 ;

haha yay to markv if he ever sees this:
whee (x you brightened up my day too alright? im glad im your genie in a bottle! haha its been nice talking to you too. and the shock you got too. i expected it anw. haha pehpeh too. its really weird huh.! well, im weird. i told you (:

anw todays been a pretty nice day. ytd too! oh and on friday haha i was being abit extra. after gng macs with pehpeh korkor and the cheerldrs, i went with pehpeh and jojo to bishan. left eunice at raffles place i think. anw im glad for the conversation.! and haha jojo and pehpeh ganged up against me alright! (harhar i got an entire paragraph typed out to engaged but since im lazy i wont write here)

so yup went with pehpeh to drop the shoes off then we took train back together. haha was freaking late la but we talked alot in the train and i thought its pretty cool. so now pehpeh's one of my goodfriends.

and eunice!
HAHA I TRUST EUNICE ALOT! (:
and i suddenly realised that i love her alot too <333
i wont let anyone qi fu my euncieeee.!

alright i bought a pair of pretty earrings ytd. and OMG ahaha you cant get them cos theyre so limited, theres only three pairs of the same design in the whole world.! (: yay. i love them though i dont really have clothes that go with them but yeah!

haha saw this nice guess bag too and daddy says he'll buy it for me for chinese new year along with new clothes. its not of much use if he buys it now anw, i have no clothes that go along with it. hahaha its the type you go to chinablack or indochine with i suppose. im innocent still alright (:

jie bought her earrings and necklace and shoes for her prom alrdy. yes that idiot who stepped on my sprained ankle. but nvm! cos well, yeah im a nice girl (: looking forward to our prom hahaha! and nov party! now we have too many pple ahaha.

anw im in a happy mood (thank xxxxx) which actl stands for many pple, but most of all due to my blacksesame from chinatown! hahah i knw i aint making sense but yeah (:

gna finish up on chem now then byebye! (: and i hope they have fun at obs.
isnt it amazing. the way you knw pple and the connections. its really surprising at times.
esp when he found out abt me and him he was totally like 'oh shit that fucking sucks' its cute, really.

solongGOODBYE

7.10.05 ;

natsu no hi no hana ni narimashou
kin no kin no kamen wo kabute
massugu ni taiyou wo nomikomi
memo kuramu memo kuramu
jyou netsu ga ten wo sasu

itsu no hi ka umi ni narimashou
aoku aoku kagayaki tsuzukete
maboroshi wa utsutsu ni kawaru
tsutsumi kome tsutsumi kome
hoshi mo niji mo un mo
tenohira ni!

KAMEN! <3

anw todays fun la. actl dont knw but i got over my fear.! and i think im pretty happy.

class was okay, then after that was sji soccer friendly! hahaha lets see, i know one-mark-gabriel, happy-birthday-on-the-bus boy, pehpeh and irwin. and then some guy named markv in jo's church, who can breakdance!

it was quite boring at the second half, cos like i was feeling pretty tired anw so went to the fibo room to dance space jam! haha FIVE PERFORMANCES ALRIGHT EUNICE AND TIFFAY! (: NOT BAD AYE?

oh and my ankles getting worse :\ ohwell.

THEN I GU QI YONG QI
and said hello.
see see see whos gna congratulate me arh! hahaha you guys must be damn proud of me right? okay la, irwins not that scary after all. talked to him after that, and hes pretty nice.! he was trying to jiao bian that he wasnt dao, but i dont knw i was quite amused la. then he said i made fun of him. ohwell haha (:

but i guess i should admit, irwins quite a good striker. aiya ex u14 national team what right. and some pple played quite well today too. but i think caiyue and shaun and shifu like quite sad cos they lost. but its okay cos our team hasnt been playing together much! so yup, im sure theyre gna do much better the next time! whee i cheered for them okay!

then went with jo and pehpeh and eunice. but eunice went fer tuition. i was damn nice i went with pehpeh to drop off the shoes at his uncle's friend's hse. and whatthehell they gang up against me in the mrt! then xavier said he loved irwin and irwin said he loves xavier too. thats so gay!

but quite nice day. overall i think they shld out neoprint machines in mrts.

OKAY AND YEAH
THANKYOU PEHPEH FOR YOGHURT.
I WILL GROW TALLER :D

solongGOODBYE

4.10.05 ;

when it comes to relationships
(im the dumbest one)
and i dont mean just with girls
(i mean with everyone)
your illustrations always point out
just whats wrong with me
its chapstick, and chapped lips
and things like chemistry.!

I MEAN LIKE,
AAAAH <3

cant stand it hahah todays a super nice uber happy day! (: i have no idea why! its not 'cos the sji street soccer team didnt come, but i think it's 'cos of MORON FIVE! (: i dont knw, theyre so cute they make me smile.

shaun!
jieshen!
caiyue!
hari!
benedict!

<3 thanks for making my day even though i only talked to the first three but yeah! mm, i just felt that theyre such nice pple la, and its kinda rare. so yup, they'll be nice friends to have!

i like to think of happy stuff
(so i shall not think abt phy full lab :\)

TMR THERES A STUDENT FORUM
AND GUESS WHAT!
MOST OF THE LDRS SELECTED TO LEAD ARE FROM SEM ONE'S 301 STUDENTS! (: yay i knw we're uber cool. haha :D

but dont knw la, i wasnt looking forward to it.

oh and i hate fucktards who arent gentlemanly. i hate this type of pple. like, i srsly despise them la.!

solongGOODBYE

1.10.05 ;

so here i am,
a love worn masochist
with hearts carved straight across my chest
letting the carpet soak up all thats left t give

when you swear you wont be sleeping
'cos i cant begin t dream t shut my eyes
and im biting bullets and watching phones
for no apparent reason
and i dont think that i'll make it out alive

was there a huge shopping sale that i didnt knw of?
was there this mass giveaway of pink polo shirts to whoever who went to a particular shopping mall?

I SWEAR THERE WAS ONE!
'cos ive been seeing everyone wear this disgusting brandless pink translucent polo shirt and 'cos its so freaking ugly the only reason why one wld ever wear it is prolly 'cos theyre damn cheap and the shirt is free. srsly, it is SHIT. if girls wear it its still okay but when guys wear it theyre super gay. and its not the prettyboy-kimtaewoo type of gay but well, the ugly-gay. so there :\ i hope youre not an ugly-gay (:

woohoo i got new favorite bands. okay my previous nice bands still stand tho [: coheed and cambria, punchline, queens of the stoneage, jamisonparker, relient k and dream theater! whee but i still like jimmyeatworld etc :D

IM ~~NOT~~ HAPPY (:

'cos i cant do cartwheels handstands flips half-flips somersaults bridge splits for two weeks. wow im super duper uber freaking happy, really :DD see im grinning.

and art fests auditions are in like two weeks. more reason to smile :D

i wanted to play pool ytd alright. then cannot :\ anw mommy came home so yay dont hafta go m'sia. but i was kinda looking forward to playing snooker with daddy. oh well, next time then. since i prolly cant play with a sprained ankle anw. see engaged im not lying (i'll tell you the story on the other blog, the one i said i'll tell :D )

OH YES YES YES wednesday we went to play ZHUANGQIU at paradigm.! haha we were so desperately trying t collect moneh so we cld go play then jo had freaking 25 dollars but shes a selfish idiot :\ and didnt wna use it initially (and we didnt hafta pay for the game cos we thrashed aunty, shhh..)

went to beautyworld and uhm bought fries and jo was so surprised that aunty agreed to meet her. heehee yeah took bus down and both of started playing first. jo was like, okay when aunty comes you must not laugh at him alright then i was like, yeah sure (: then we were playing halfway and this uhm guy just walked next t our table while talking on the phone (how did he knw we're at table ten) and jo just laughed okay. so i like, suddenly dropped to my knees and laughed like shit :\ and i was hiding behind the table so much i didnt dare to come up and play cos it was my turn next and i didnt want him to see me play!

kay haha we feel quite bad though. and then i asked him to play for me and he won.! heehee then me and jo teamed up against him. hes pretty cool la, he finished the whole table after one break and didnt even let us touch the cue stick.

OKAY FINE THATS VERY COOL :anw we didnt lose very badly cept for some games. and i lost to him by one ball while playing singles alright! so im... not that bad la :D then we like, refused to pay haha being poor little kids so he paid! yup then went into lift. at first he went into one, then me and jo walked into the other, and the door was like gna close alrdy both of us collapsed onto the floor and laughed like idiots andandand. the door opened and he walked in and well, laughed/sighed at us! :\ so malu. but we feel quite bad.!

yay thats all. wed was a laughing day! (:

solongGOODBYE