why are you so in love with bittersweet romance?

31.1.05 ;

i -heart- RED!

yup!
((:
and i love naaat and jo as well.

and my cheerleaders.
we're so gonna do a great job and do our house proud!
-smirks
ESP IN FRONT OF FLEMING.
XD

today was pretty high. thanks nat jo hari and tweeen (eugene) for that hokay! [: and the U.G.L.Y. song is just so terribly cuuute and bimbo i like it so much. hah. we were singing it to thebra so obviously in school today.
yesyesyes
i knw im mean.
(:
but who cares anw.

(oh. and michel i knw you dont read this but anw. i think you're a pretty nice person and all. and besides you're like. nobel capt and stuff so be less FIERCE can! [: )

solongGOODBYE

30.1.05 ;

ok im glad all this is finally over.
ive gotten the closure.

its half of what i wanted.
i mean, well. though its pretty sad we didnt end up as friends still but i guess its still okay larh. (:
now i just want to concentrate on my studies, nat and jo, and of course my darling red house cheerleading team!

we;re gonna rock the whole school down babyyy!

solongGOODBYE

29.1.05 ;

sigh
just watched this really tragic show.
WU JIAN DAO I

aaah!
>< he dieddd. damn sad. and its like before he took his last breath he realised that the brother whom he trusted so much, is actl an undercover cop! )):

and um
I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER OKAY?
get well soon.
><

solongGOODBYE

28.1.05 ;

((:
today was a nice day!
(except for the fact that i just reached home but nvm anw!)

today's english was like. totally boring larh kay. i mean. in the morning i went early so just jogged arnd 2.8+ km with yingzhen. and first period was english. i mean, yeah i know shes nice and all but the whatever stupid ten commandments thing is just plain boringgg.
ALMOST everyone was dozing off i think.

and kevitha absolutely oh-so-sucks maaan.
I HATE HER.
><>ugh. tcher? its like. im not the only one who doesnt like her. the whole class agreed so.
so. yeah

red house AGM was so nice! XD
hahaaa.
guess what i am.
CHEERLEADING CAPT!
wheee. we're the only house with the cheerleading team larh so we're so gonna rock the school with the prettyyy reddish and white cheerleading uniform! yay. and quite a number of pple joined can! thats cool.

AND!
we're gonna do physical trng! ((: haha.

and i just like. briefly glanced through all the members and realised that maybe we're not that bad after all. as in, we still have a high chance at clinching the sports meet champion thing for girls. guys, im not too sure. but, definitely higher chance than yellow? heard that they have lotsa geeks there. eeks.

oh.
and chemistry
gee i suck maaan!

then CCA!
which was veryveryvery funn.
i passed alex's basic shooting courses then yz's and hari's dribbling course! and we did the passing, jumps, defense, cross overs and stuff and basically its like. we learnt quite a lot from them!
YAY
thanks yingzhen, hari, naaaat, and alex for being so patient with us! ((:

then a while later some rj pple came and nat and alex played friendly match against them.
WE WON!
haha. so pro.
we're like. offering moral support by cheering at the sidelines. and naat was like looking damn pro larh caaan!
XD

and then
we um
walked to jelita together
and took 156 with hari
and talked alot abt stuff.

naaat kor is a nice person to talk to!
yesyesyes!
hes so gentleman larh.
[:
UNLIKE SOMEONE DUDE.

so. thank you naaat and jo for being there today and making me actl feel high again. as in not that low and angsty mood. thank you for the CHIP! thing and the shouting into the stupid drain thing. and the darts! and the nice nice spa thing. which we MUST go someday hokay?
<333
and our promise?
cheers to our lil secret!
-grins

and we solemnly swear that someday we *MUST* go naaat's hse for sleepover and party and get real high! (:

solongGOODBYE

27.1.05 ;

i am writing 'thankyou' letters now.
(:

to all you nice pple who tried to keep me high for the past week. wrote one for jo, nat already. heh. yeah. i wrote during class maaan. XD geog class.
WAS TOO BOREDDD.

haha.
um lets see.
jenlow. oliver. bryan. ken. jacque. roy. and sky

aaah. so many letters to write!
and valentine's day is coming. im so pathetically broke. and im without my phone. ugh.

solongGOODBYE

26.1.05 ;

WHOOPS
i think someone hates me.

so much for being best friends.

solongGOODBYE

25.1.05 ;

im feeling better than the past week but i dont exactly know the reason why. i just have this sudden urge to go out with the four of them again and go really really high! maybe like. get tiffany and oliver and lawrence? and more people along and we go take neos and we PARTY!

um.
i think.
if i dont get angsty again. that is.

oh yay.
anw
sarah and isaac coming tmr! so cooool right? (:

solongGOODBYE

24.1.05 ;

i cant believe im still stuck in here. how long has it been anw? a week? and im still so caught up in this mess. im wondering stuff and i dont knowww whether i should trust you.

butbutbut
at least someone out of us three has felt a teeny weeny happy today.
so im glad for you jo.

(now we can happily kick you out of the angst club)

solongGOODBYE

23.1.05 ;

everyone whos dying to know what really happened last sunday should all go read jojo's
'24 X 7 hours ago'
entry. yeah. it brings up lotsa. memories.
yeah
><

im sorry if my angsting and mood swings affected you guys. but i just wanna say. thanks for being there and i love you all.

solongGOODBYE

;

i dont know what happened.
im lost.

did everything just get worse.
or is it all my fault in the first place.
):

(oh and btw my phone's confiscated. so im not daoing anyone or anything like that)

solongGOODBYE

22.1.05 ;

im so saaad.

serious.
):

its like. im so LOW after being so high. this is the pits
DAMMIT.

it just so sad and depressing that things were absolutely fantastic and fun and nice and all then it can turn so sour and i dont even know why.

so. those who have been really nice friends who stood by me all this while. thanks. and i mean it.
I <333 you all!

and i cant imagine how i wld be without all these love and support.

-i cant believe that i actually believed you when you said you'll be there for me when i needed you most but hey look now, the way things have turned out and you dont even care. it makes me wonder who you truly are -

solongGOODBYE

21.1.05 ;

i know you dont read this
butbutbut.

SORRY
i dont think this is going anywhere if you're not going to talk to me. and you dont even tell me why.

settled.
and JO I KOPED YOUR LINE.
heh

solongGOODBYE

18.1.05 ;

my lovelist 2005*
`jojo!
`larsy!
`jacque!
`yingzhen!
`bryaaan!
`kenwei!
`jen!
`irwin!
`naaaaat ng!
`sky!
`lawrence!
`oliver!
`tiffany!
`roy!
`TWIN! (eugene)
`aiwei!
`yuting!
`fiona!
`samuel!
`my class!
`leon!
`ronald!

<3333
-not in order of preference or whatsoever
-exlcudes NANYANG (:

solongGOODBYE

17.1.05 ;

TIGER CUP
uh.
its damn fun.
but
other than some stuff

NO COMMENTS

haha/ not telling you.

solongGOODBYE

15.1.05 ;

loser
loser
OLIVER!

[[[:

my shoelace thing
is all over nushs now
whoops.
haha

anw
nat so darn healthy his blood is bright red.
whoa.
so pretty.
(:

solongGOODBYE

14.1.05 ;

heh
today damn funny.

the
SOMEONE STEPPED ON MY SHOE THING!
with oliver, jojo, sky, lawrence and tiff was so so so darn funny.

um
((:
the joke was on me

BUTBUTBUT!
XD
nvm. haha.
and the delifrance thing.
the headroll we all did! internal joke known by only oliver, me and jojo. and maybe ken wei.
THAT GIRL
yesyesyes
ken wei is so feminine it hurts! yeah. [: haha and guess what. i was made to flirt with him. haha. not that it's very hard larh. but it's to test smthng!
YES!
BED!
BED!
BED!

[:
mm.
so we were damn high and hyper at delifrance and debs asked us to keep really quiet. i think she thinks we're crazy. whoops. i mean like, im sorry im always so high and hyper okay! ((:
and oliver with his BURP and the woman gng:
YOUNG MAN THAT WAS IN MY EAR!
and i cldnt stop laughing i ran away quickly. then she said smthng along the lines of
'MIND YR MANNERS'
butbutbut
we were walking away already and still laughing like maaaad.
haha
yeah
HYPER IS GOOD.

solongGOODBYE

;

okay lorh
jojo
i know you're reading this can. so im like. writing on purpose? yeah.

anw.
who the hell ever said i dont care whether we drifted apart. maybe its you or dont know what but i didnt really feel that we did. i mean like.
WE JUST WENT ORCHARD TOGETHER YTD?
so uh yeahh.

plus.
with you and jen thing. i dont think i can really stand his 'STARES' when im like helping you when you two quarrel. you know its been rather hard for me cuz im like. in the middle and sometimes you two just quarrel every single second you have and im torn apart between your whining and jen's glares.
DUH I HELPED YOU CAN!

andandand.
i nvr said i wanted you guys to be any form of lysh-subsitute whatever. you know. alycia is one special individual and forever my best friend and i miss her a lot but that doesnt mean that my other good friends hafta be like her as well. you know i nvr wanted you to be like her or anything like that. i mean, ive known you for two yrs as that LOUD jo tan and i liked you as that.
fine if you dont understand me and think that i think it doesnt matter if we drift. in case you didnt know, friends mean a lot to me hokay.

so. yeah.
im gonna sleep now.
and still watching tiger cup finals this sunday.

AND
gui i dont like you anymore.
as a friend i mean.
as in. dont be a jerk oh kay.

solongGOODBYE

12.1.05 ;

hah.
im hyper today
(:

yes
hyper-angst-hyper-angst
it goes in a cycle

XD
anw, im gng to the tiger cup finals! yay. today we were like. waiting in school then later went to city hall with jo, jen, and hubert. and we SHOPPED! haha. its amusing to see hubert shop cuz he's like sec one, and i hafta explain to him the purpose of window shopping. and he found us sec threes.
DISGUSTING.

haha.
not me okay!
was this sick couple by the name of jojo and jen
EEK I DONT KNOW THEM!
REALLY!

okay okay
anw
this sunday
im gng to watch tiger cup finals!
YAY!
*jumpsjumps*
went to get the tickets today oh kay? was blardy darn hot and my legs hurt and my left ankle was swollen and irwin cldnt make it.

so anw.
i got tickets for yingzhen and nat too!
yay then we can all watch together.
and then EAT PRATA!!!
(((:

solongGOODBYE

10.1.05 ;

bleh
someone say angst.
that person is me.

)):
i dont know why i havent been feeling all great. i know it's supposed to be a new school and all but. i mean like.
UGH.
><
it's no longer ny with all those nice nice pple.

no more talking to lysh and claire and britt everyday. no more daily hugs from mommy joo. no more recesses with them. no more best friends to talk with everyday.
you kinda get it. the feeling is just so plain terrible.

its like.
in ny, no one's mean. even if they sound like they are, you know they dont actually mean it and stuff, and moments later everyone will be hugging each other and offering moral support. maybe it's just the girl school thing. but you gotta admit, its just. different.

and sometimes difference is not good.

sigh
2yrs in ny are like. terrific. cuz of all the people there. track snrs, classmates, or just random pple.
fffine
i know im paranoid or whatever you may call me

yeah i know im angsting
shutup
you're not supposed to remind me.
):
*CONTINUES ANGST*

solongGOODBYE

3.1.05 ;

BOO.
*pokes*

first day of school today.
OOH I LOVE RED NOW!
<3333!
yup.
like, since im in red house.
i shall be enthu!

YAY.
*jumps jumps*
((:
uh. anyway the house capt so cannot go to THAT yr1 girl. her voice is too soft and she is too short and she fails to motivate us.
SIGH
dont know larh.
im still preparing for the dance.

solongGOODBYE

2.1.05 ;

I
LOVE
ALAM
SHAH.

<33333!

he's damn cool can. scored two times in the golden ball thing.
WHOA!
(:
aaahhh i love him.
yeahh.

uh.
sorry if this is any spoiler for anyone who hasnt watched the match
butbutBUT!
i think he's cool.
XD

and the KASMAR guy too. golden-haired one.
I LIKE HIM
cuz he's been running so much i think he rocks.
[[:

haha.
and IRWIN YOU'RE SO COOL YOU'RE IN THE TEAM!!!
mm... yeah.
(:

ANYWAY.
myanmar's goalkeeper is kinda cute larh can. YUP. too bad he's from myanmar. boo.
*pokes*
wish he's in sg instead.

OH.
and happy new yr darlings!
yay.
i miss all trackers and nysec2 geppers.
ESP LYSH AND CLAIRE AND JOY.
):

solongGOODBYE