hey, you know theyre all the same. you know youre doing better on your own so dont buy in. live right now, just be yourself, it doesnt matter if its good enough for someone else. it just takes some time little girl, youre in the middle of the ride. everything everything will be just fine. everything everything will be all right

man i loved jimmyeatworld so much haha. and i still do.

anyway sometimes i wonder about stuff - is it worth it. is it worth losing friends like nat&oliver over someone who doesnt really give a damn but just insult them out of boredom. i think its time for us to take the world seriously, to really grow up and abandon the childishness. growing old is inevitable, growing up is optional - okay this is a stolen quote from one of my msn contacts, cant really remember who it is but it's probably the only thing that i know about growing up. its quite true anyway.

crimson&clover,
over&over.

to some extent i think im some sort of traditionalist, in terms of beliefs and stuff like that. in fact i think my parents taught me well about respect. i find it hard to believe that some people actually dont give a damn about it. it's quite scary actually, and i can never figure out why is it so. its like those type of things you grow up to believe in, and its puzzling why others could think in other manners. and now im talking about respecting an individual for who he is, and respect the fact that hes an equal and is entitled to his own opinion.

isnt it ironic that the same person who cursed/insulted about almost every single person i know (even if she herself doesnt know that person) & chides me for making friends with those pple, turn around someday and accuse myself of limiting myself to a small social circle.

anyway i dont like to make scenes so i think recently ive been rather hoping to slip away unnoticed. that's better actually, lesser contact means less chance of getting yelled at.